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A little lost…

I find myself struggling. I feel my training is what I absolutely need to do and yet I feel worn out, tired, sluggish, and deprived. I say deprived because I know I need to stop eating the bad foods and make better choices. I also feel deprived when I do not train and do the thing that I need to do. Sometimes you have to just make yourself get up and go, or if at all possible do something different. I want to try DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) again and see if I can substitute it for gym time. If I can get at least twenty to thirty minutes of DDR time in today that would be good. At least it’s something different and it is colorful and fun and I really love it. But, on the other hand I miss Ellie at the gym and I call the machine that because it is short for Elliptical. It is my favorite gym machine and I do not know what I would do without it. I need to get out of this funk and I know nothing is instantaneous. I have to keep working at it or I might be forced to use other methods like other medications that was suggested by my doctor. I hate pills, I hate medicine, and if I could get off all my current medication I would be a happy camper.

Music is good therapy for me and so is an hour or two of Minecraft. In Minecraft you have lulling calming music while doing monotonous tasks that either calm you or put you to sleep. It only puts me to sleep if I am tired and I had not gotten sleep previously. There are other ways to cope as well such as writing things down in a diary/journal. If you type personal stuff on a blog it does not have as much meaning/feeling of pouring all the bad/sad/whatever stuff out as physically writing it. Art is the next best thing to express oneself with whatever a person might be going through whether you are good or not. Art can be anything from drawing, sculpting, writing a story/poetry, coloring, cooking (it is in the presentation), and whatever you can make with your own hands and creativity. You can actually combine Minecraft and art by making pixel art with the blocks. I am not very good at pixel art in Minecraft, but a lot of people are and I just sit there in creative mode and play with the blocks and call it “Virtual Legos”. Which, I was not too good at the real thing as a kid. I was the kid that made lopsided houses and weird stuff.

Here’s hope to more positive outlook and thoughts! 🙂

C25K-R2: Week 1 – Day 3

I ran this Saturday despite me having a blister underneath my right pinky toe. When I worked out on last Wednesday I tried to take it easy. It is getting better to say the least and on Saturday one of the “run” intervals I actually RAN for twenty seconds and it felt good. I am getting there I guess and then there was talk with my running partner to go to Cedar City, Utah next fall of 2018. Why is that? For a half marathon and then I questioned how long that was, but I should of known it would be 13.1 miles. I have the marathon miles memorized as 26.2 so if it is half because it is a half marathon…eh you get the picture. Now I am training for that half marathon. This gives me at least a year and half to train even if I end up walking half or all of it…to walk half a marathon would be an accomplishment for me.

Buffets should be avoided

Bad news…I went to a buffet for dinner last night. The good news is that I did not have three or more plates full of food. I realized I can not eat like I could at a buffet like before. It was one plateful of food and I felt really full. I also had some diet coke because my medicine was making me sick to my stomach. But, once I was eating and sipping the diet coke it got better.

And today I feel like my body is in safe mode. I woke up this morning with cold sweats. I have done this before on occasion. I think the mountain hike yesterday afternoon was a bit much and not because of the walk, but because of the slight altitude change. That could have done something maybe?  I roughly enjoyed the hike more so because it was a paved trail, but going back was uphill and I wanted to get to the car faster so I over exerted myself by walking faster. I was not alone because I had a couple of friends with me so no worries. It was a mile mountain trail hike with stuff to read along the way telling you about the trail. It was amazingly quiet up there until other hikers were walking up the walkway.

All in all it was a nice day trip in the late afternoon. I start training at the gym again today after work. Wish me luck! 🙂

 

The Doctor Visit

I went to see my doctor yesterday and I was more upset yesterday than today. This is because I learned that all my training I did for eight weeks felt like it was for nothing. My doctor was great and all, but I was disappointed at my body because apparently my AC1’s did not budge. They did not budge one bit to my rising feelings of chagrin. My AC1’s are 8.2 and I was not expecting to get back to the seven’s or anything, but at least for it to move one point. The doctor discussed with me about eating right going along with the exercise. I have to change my diet of what I eat. Exercise is only 10% of a healthy life and when trying to lose weight. While, eating is the other 90% is what my doctor was telling me about.

So, we talked about a lot of things and a lot of issues and my mood swings. I’m not going to divulge into the whole enchilada, but when your sugar does a roller coaster of highs and lows so does your moods. There is something else I got diagnosed with (nothing life threatening and I am not dying) and it contributes to that and a few other things. I guess I got a double whammy here and I am still processing it and thinking of a strategy for battle so to speak. I am not a spring chicken anymore, but I am not elderly or old and so I guess I can not do a lot of physical activity and eat whatever. Teens can do this and not change their diet and lose weight and sometimes young adults can do this. I have to re-chart my whole exercise routine and come up with a newer plan.

Rover Run 5K (Part Two)

I wanted to talk more about the 5k that I walked this past Saturday. I was really tired and a bit dehydrated, but I made it and next time I have to learn to drink water and walk. Even though the weather was perfect the sun got to me a little bit. It was fun seeing all those dogs there. When I walked a 5k before it took me anywhere from two to three hours to finish. I am happy that I got it down to one and half hours to finish. I still think I need a lot more training to do before I can actually start running a 5k. I need to keep the food demons away as well.

Since I used the race as a substitute for my C25K app Week 8 – Day 2 because there will be no post about that day because obviously the race counts. The last day of the training app is today. I will probably do that in the gym because now it is getting warmer outside. I will still run with my running partner early in the morning on Saturdays before sunrise so that we both do not bake in the sun. We will start the training over, but first we will take a week off to rest. Initially, in the app after you finish it says to take a week off before you to your 5k race. But, in this case it is going to be a week off and then start the training over to hone more running skills.

C25K: Week 6 – Day 3…CANCELLED

I did not run this past Saturday due to torrential rain in the desert. I know this sounds like an oxymoron, but it really happened and also I was not feeling well that day. I said I would make it up somehow to my running partner, but I never got the chance to make it up in fear it would screw up week seven and make me unable to bear the first day of that week. The first day in a new week of the training app is always the worst and I did not want to be too tired for it.

I am stepping up on my food intake and what kinds of foods I am letting my body ingest. I decided for portion control to invest in getting small cake plates. The trick is I can eat my meals as long as they fit on the plate and that does not mean make a small mountain either… -_-;

This week I am going to try harder and it is okay once in awhile to take a break from your training routine…just do not make a vacation out of it. ^_^;;

Rest is important for the body too and make sure to drink plenty of water, eat lots and lots of veggies (I can not stress this enough), eat some fruits, and get plenty of sleep. Oh and I need to cut out the caffeine, but I needed it today so I had mom put on a pot of coffee and I made myself a nice 15 oz. of glorious happy battery life giving juice. I am going to be a bit hyper today, but also my anxiety will run higher today and I hope I can manage it as well as the extra energy. Have a happy wonderful Tuesday! ^_^

C25K: Week 6 – Day 2

Yesterday’s workout seemed to just take forever, which made my muscles more tired. It was a five minute warm up walk, then ten minutes for running, three minutes for walking, and then finally ten minutes for running again. Oh and then there is the five minute cool down where I just keep walking, but at a slower pace. My muscles, feet, and sides were paining me. I will reiterate and say that my Saturday runs I enjoy more and it is not as bad. My running partner said it would have gone by faster if I remembered my earbuds for my phone for music. She is right in a way and then I am not looking at my phone constantly to see the countdown of each section. But, the thing is I either forget my Fit Bit or I forget my earbuds and I have to have my steps count.

Tonight I go to my dance class and work on my belly dancing which shapes my stomach. It is raining outside pretty hard. It is a rare sight out in the desert especially in the middle of nowhere, so when it rains it floods, and when it floods no one can get anywhere. Also, there is this thing about people who live in the desert do not know how to drive in the rain let alone if it floods. Hopefully the weather is not too bad so I can get to my class.

C25K: Week 5 – Day 1

Yesterday’s run was interesting. I think on the intervals I had to run I did some slow running. Week five was not so bad, but yet it was still difficult at the same time. I do not know how that is possible, but trust me it was possible and I felt better about running the first interval of the new week. I still thought I was going to die towards the end rather than the beginning of the run.

I also was getting some foot pain while running. The pain was minimal and I think that maybe due more towards the fact that I need to use lotion on my feet rather than blame it on the diabetes. I should not dismiss that the disease is the cause of the pain though. I do need to be careful because if I do get an injury then instead of taking one day off it might turn into week or more. I do not want that because it will drive me crazy.

In other news I still need to force myself to drink more water. I do not know why it is hard for me to do that when I was younger I drank water like a camel. I know as we all get older things change like your body, mind, and food likes. I have to remind myself I am not a spring chicken anymore. It is true that you are young as you feel and age is just a number, but that takes care of your mental health. Your mental health and how you feel are important. This does not give you the license to do a cannonball off the high dive and do some foolish daredevil stunt like you are twelve again. You are not twelve so do not do stupid stuff that has a high possibility of you breaking bones, spraining something, or getting some other horrible injury. If you get injured how can you keep training?

I am not a kid, I am not a teenager, I am not even a young adult, and I am not elderly either just to be clear. I am somewhere in the middle trying to find my middle ground. I am trying to find my space to exist in and a place where I can breathe comfortably in my own skin.

C25K: Week 4 – Day 3

I am starting to think running in the morning before breakfast really is great. I had a better time running on an empty stomach than if I just scarfed down a half a cup of oatmeal or a piece of toast. I know this post is late, but I was so out of it on Saturday that I had a nap five hours after my run. I showered and ate breakfast after my run, then I had to stay awake for the cleaning ladies to clean the house, and while I was relaxing after that I started to nod off. I slept for a couple of hours and then later that day I went to bed at 9:30pm and slept until around 10am the next day. I was still sleepy so I had to ingest some caffeinated beverage. It did wake me up to where I was more alert and then I wondered if I was getting enough water intake. Since I am exercising and doing more physical activity than I am used to and not increasing my usual water intake with it may be dehydrating me. It is a theory that I am going to go with.