Sorry, I know I have not blogged in a long while. I had a small “depression and anxiety spell”. This sometimes happens when it gets closer to the date of when my father passed. I did manage not to completely stop going to the gym. I also got caught up with watching American Ninja Warrior again. I think I want to train for it again and what stopped me last time is I realized heights were actually involved on the show and I am afraid of heights. I want to overcome this fear by getting fit and trying my hand at Spelunking to conquer this fear.
I am afraid of a doctor’s appointment at the end of the month of July. It is not my regular doctor, but a podiatrist and I am not too happy that my regular doctor said since I am diabetic it is now mandatory to see a foot doctor. I’m afraid they will not be very nice and do things to my feet that might be scary and/or painful and I just do not want to go. In other news though I started writing my novel! Yay! Mom is editing the first chapter and I realized I should have double spaced it for easier editing. I am currently writing chapter three….
Yes I can count! Here’s the thing…while editing my mom said my first chapter was too long and broke it up into two. Hence, I need to start writing chapter three. I need to read more books for practice and I know my reading has slowed down, but I will get back on the horse so to speak. Back to the gym tomorrow morning as well. I keep forgetting I have training to do for my half marathon that I am suppose to be able to walk and complete September 2018. When things are really far away into the future I tend to forget about them. ^^;
Good news is I lost ten pounds. 🙂
- Bookshelf Life
- Gamer 4 Life
- Current Obsessions
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I have a follow up doctor’s appointment late this afternoon. I want to be cleared to go to the gym again. If I do get cleared it will be walking on the treadmill until I build back up that strength that I had. Even if it is as frustrating as it sounds starting over, but hopefully this means I can get back to where I was quickly.
In the reading department I had bought more books online. I could not help myself and even though I am not done with the Throne of Glass series I picked up a physical copy of Sarah J. Maas’ other series, “A Court of Thorns and Roses”. I also bought “Speak” and I started reading it a little bit because I could not wait and I realized that it has no chapters. So if I update my bookshelf life tab it will be in pages and I know I have a lot of books I am reading and that I have not finished. It was becoming too cluttered each month to list them all so I’ll just have to list books I am currently reading. These books can change each month if I decide to stop reading them for a month and read a few other different books. It is like a book buffet and I know a few reasons why it takes me so long to finish a book so that it seems like forever.
Why I can not finish a book quickly
- Life…. I’m fairly busy.
- I read at an average pace.
- If I read any faster I will not understand what I just read.
- Sometimes books have slow boring parts.
- I get distracted easily by other pretty books.
- Sometimes I get angry at the author.
- If I run into an emotional part in the book I have to take a break.
- I may not like the book, but I have OCD and have to finish it.
- I’m savoring it because it is a great read.
- I am too invested in the story to want to finish it. (i.e. last book/only book)
I know I need to be more diligent and find ways to get these books read faster to I can move onto more books and/or finish a series.
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I find myself struggling. I feel my training is what I absolutely need to do and yet I feel worn out, tired, sluggish, and deprived. I say deprived because I know I need to stop eating the bad foods and make better choices. I also feel deprived when I do not train and do the thing that I need to do. Sometimes you have to just make yourself get up and go, or if at all possible do something different. I want to try DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) again and see if I can substitute it for gym time. If I can get at least twenty to thirty minutes of DDR time in today that would be good. At least it’s something different and it is colorful and fun and I really love it. But, on the other hand I miss Ellie at the gym and I call the machine that because it is short for Elliptical. It is my favorite gym machine and I do not know what I would do without it. I need to get out of this funk and I know nothing is instantaneous. I have to keep working at it or I might be forced to use other methods like other medications that was suggested by my doctor. I hate pills, I hate medicine, and if I could get off all my current medication I would be a happy camper.
Music is good therapy for me and so is an hour or two of Minecraft. In Minecraft you have lulling calming music while doing monotonous tasks that either calm you or put you to sleep. It only puts me to sleep if I am tired and I had not gotten sleep previously. There are other ways to cope as well such as writing things down in a diary/journal. If you type personal stuff on a blog it does not have as much meaning/feeling of pouring all the bad/sad/whatever stuff out as physically writing it. Art is the next best thing to express oneself with whatever a person might be going through whether you are good or not. Art can be anything from drawing, sculpting, writing a story/poetry, coloring, cooking (it is in the presentation), and whatever you can make with your own hands and creativity. You can actually combine Minecraft and art by making pixel art with the blocks. I am not very good at pixel art in Minecraft, but a lot of people are and I just sit there in creative mode and play with the blocks and call it “Virtual Legos”. Which, I was not too good at the real thing as a kid. I was the kid that made lopsided houses and weird stuff.
Here’s hope to more positive outlook and thoughts! 🙂
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I ran this Saturday despite me having a blister underneath my right pinky toe. When I worked out on last Wednesday I tried to take it easy. It is getting better to say the least and on Saturday one of the “run” intervals I actually RAN for twenty seconds and it felt good. I am getting there I guess and then there was talk with my running partner to go to Cedar City, Utah next fall of 2018. Why is that? For a half marathon and then I questioned how long that was, but I should of known it would be 13.1 miles. I have the marathon miles memorized as 26.2 so if it is half because it is a half marathon…eh you get the picture. Now I am training for that half marathon. This gives me at least a year and half to train even if I end up walking half or all of it…to walk half a marathon would be an accomplishment for me.
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I went to see my doctor yesterday and I was more upset yesterday than today. This is because I learned that all my training I did for eight weeks felt like it was for nothing. My doctor was great and all, but I was disappointed at my body because apparently my AC1’s did not budge. They did not budge one bit to my rising feelings of chagrin. My AC1’s are 8.2 and I was not expecting to get back to the seven’s or anything, but at least for it to move one point. The doctor discussed with me about eating right going along with the exercise. I have to change my diet of what I eat. Exercise is only 10% of a healthy life and when trying to lose weight. While, eating is the other 90% is what my doctor was telling me about.
So, we talked about a lot of things and a lot of issues and my mood swings. I’m not going to divulge into the whole enchilada, but when your sugar does a roller coaster of highs and lows so does your moods. There is something else I got diagnosed with (nothing life threatening and I am not dying) and it contributes to that and a few other things. I guess I got a double whammy here and I am still processing it and thinking of a strategy for battle so to speak. I am not a spring chicken anymore, but I am not elderly or old and so I guess I can not do a lot of physical activity and eat whatever. Teens can do this and not change their diet and lose weight and sometimes young adults can do this. I have to re-chart my whole exercise routine and come up with a newer plan.
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I wanted to talk more about the 5k that I walked this past Saturday. I was really tired and a bit dehydrated, but I made it and next time I have to learn to drink water and walk. Even though the weather was perfect the sun got to me a little bit. It was fun seeing all those dogs there. When I walked a 5k before it took me anywhere from two to three hours to finish. I am happy that I got it down to one and half hours to finish. I still think I need a lot more training to do before I can actually start running a 5k. I need to keep the food demons away as well.
Since I used the race as a substitute for my C25K app Week 8 – Day 2 because there will be no post about that day because obviously the race counts. The last day of the training app is today. I will probably do that in the gym because now it is getting warmer outside. I will still run with my running partner early in the morning on Saturdays before sunrise so that we both do not bake in the sun. We will start the training over, but first we will take a week off to rest. Initially, in the app after you finish it says to take a week off before you to your 5k race. But, in this case it is going to be a week off and then start the training over to hone more running skills.
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I walked this one because like I said before that I am doing a 5K this Saturday. I am trying to save up energy. My muscles have been so sore and tired and if a nice hot shower and bath does not alleviate these aches and pains Saturday evening then I do not know what else will. There has to be other ways to relax the muscles with homeopathic ways instead of using prescriptions or over the counter drugs. I hate taking pills, but if I really got to take anything, like my diabetic medication I have no choice, then I will take them despite my loathing dislike of them. My legs want to kill me all ready and I just want to stay in bed. It seems that even though I went to bed early for the last two nights that it has been very hard to get up in the morning. I do not know how to combat this and the only thing I can do for now is hang in there until I see the doctor in a couple of weeks.
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I slept for twelve hours straight yesterday. I must have been tired. I could go for some bad foods that I should not have right now, but I need to stay focused and not give in. I had some cookies yesterday though. I am not going to deny it. Today, I do my run after work and it is more likely that I will fast walk than run. I am going to do a weigh in in the middle of this month because you know…women’s issues from before.
I am a bit nervous about my 5k race this Saturday. I might do a recording of it or take pictures, but then again I heard that is frowned upon in the running community. Oh well, I can still blog about it later! 🙂
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Yesterday’s training was to run for 28 minutes… I wound up actually fast walking it because my feet and legs were hurting. Hey, in hindsight I have been doing really great up until the edge of week eight of training. This is why I am going to do the training twice over. I also want to take it easy because on Saturday there is a 5k race that I am running with a friend. Okay, in reality I will probably walk it, but jog some parts of it. I know week eight is brutal because it is the last week.
I have to lose weight. I have to lose weight. I have to lose weight.
I want to incorporate more salads into my diet and veggies and grilled fish for the protein part.
I want to fit into that dress that I saw in the shop and I have a year and half to do it.
Why is this so hard? It is not hard it should be easy, but yet this is proving to be difficult.
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Saturdays are always a good day to run and yesterday was perfect. The weather was perfect even if my hands were freezing. I did not attend my dance class this past Friday because I was so exhausted. Also, yesterday I had to drive to see my brother and his fiance because I said I would be there to help her pick out wedding dresses. I was the official photographer and it was fun. Afterward my brother had dinner all ready done and it was delicious! He wants to do a fun run type of 5k and he has lost so much weight doing the “Raw Fitness Diet”. I do not doubt it works, but it is just not for me and also I can not afford it. I am really proud of him I and as I think about that thought he’s probably snacking out of the pantry…ha ha ha…he’s earned it.
I have another reason to drop the weight because they are going to get married in a year and half and I really want to look good in a dress because my future sister in law says I must wear a dress. Can I not just come in a tuxedo…? XD
I hate dresses. I do not think that they are not pretty, but I do not feel comfortable in dresses and therefore I hate them. I think why this is is because of my body size I just feel like a potato wrapped up in tinfoil and served as leftovers. I do not want to be a potato anymore. When I cosplay I am a cute potato, but not as regular fancy dress stuff. I have to lose this weight. When we were kids my brother was a rolly polly like me, and now he’s a string bean…ha ha ha…I still love him though no matter what size because he is family. 🙂
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