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C25K: Week 6 – Day 1

I would like to contribute the notion that yesterday’s run was difficult even though for some reason it was almost like the runs at the end of week four, but more like the beginning of week five. I think the main difference is that it is getting warmer earlier in the year. It is not enough to get out the shorts and short sleeved shirts, but when you are running outside or exercising outside then yes, the temperature makes all the difference especially when you live out in the middle of nowhere in the desert. This time my legs were really hurting and I still had to do the grocery shopping afterwards.

When I got home I ate dinner and then twenty minutes there after I passed out literally on my bed around seven and slept until two in the morning. I stayed away for about ten to fifteen minutes before passing out again asleep until ten minutes before my alarm wakes me up at five the next morning.

With that being said, I think my exercise routine is going well and I would like to do a video blog on YouTube. But, I am not sure it will be received well because even this website is still in its baby stage. Mostly if I do blog on YouTube it will be for any hiking adventures or photos and stuff like that. The reason for that is because I can not afford more bandwidth or GB or whatever it is called to hold everything and keep it all up on the site. I know I have 8 GB worth for starters, but as all of us tech people know is that can fill up fast. I hope that makes sense. If money and bandwidth were not an issue I would post videos and pictures directly to the website.

I hope to go on some hiking adventures soon. I do not know when I can make a trip out to some easy going hiking spots, because you have to start out easy and become more physically fit before taking on bigger hiking trails. I am actually excited thinking about it.

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C25K: Week 5 – Day 1

Yesterday’s run was interesting. I think on the intervals I had to run I did some slow running. Week five was not so bad, but yet it was still difficult at the same time. I do not know how that is possible, but trust me it was possible and I felt better about running the first interval of the new week. I still thought I was going to die towards the end rather than the beginning of the run.

I also was getting some foot pain while running. The pain was minimal and I think that maybe due more towards the fact that I need to use lotion on my feet rather than blame it on the diabetes. I should not dismiss that the disease is the cause of the pain though. I do need to be careful because if I do get an injury then instead of taking one day off it might turn into week or more. I do not want that because it will drive me crazy.

In other news I still need to force myself to drink more water. I do not know why it is hard for me to do that when I was younger I drank water like a camel. I know as we all get older things change like your body, mind, and food likes. I have to remind myself I am not a spring chicken anymore. It is true that you are young as you feel and age is just a number, but that takes care of your mental health. Your mental health and how you feel are important. This does not give you the license to do a cannonball off the high dive and do some foolish daredevil stunt like you are twelve again. You are not twelve so do not do stupid stuff that has a high possibility of you breaking bones, spraining something, or getting some other horrible injury. If you get injured how can you keep training?

I am not a kid, I am not a teenager, I am not even a young adult, and I am not elderly either just to be clear. I am somewhere in the middle trying to find my middle ground. I am trying to find my space to exist in and a place where I can breathe comfortably in my own skin.

I am absolutely convinced that diet soda is the devil.

I had some diet soda on Saturday night because I had not had any for awhile. I also did this as an experiment. Then something happened the next morning when I got on the scale. I gained two pounds apparently. Yes, you can chock it up to (especially for women) the body’s weight fluctuates, and one should not weigh themselves frequently. Whenever I go on these health journeys I always find myself frustrated, bewildered, and I want instant gratification. I know logically that the weight gain did not happen over night because it was a combination of many years of bad food choices and lack of motivation to be active. It certainly is not going to come off in a fort night just because I cranked up my activity level and started making better food choices.

As far as diet soda goes, in my opinion, is worse than regular soda and yet I can not drink that either because I am diabetic. I might as well drink battery acid because soda is not good for you period. When I drink diet soda I get bad cramps in my legs and headaches, my stomach is bloated, and I start craving sugary and heavily starched foods. I notice once I stop drinking this crap (and it takes a good while) that I stop craving a lot of the bad things that are not good for my body. I mean it doesn’t eliminate all, but at least I’m not jumping out of my seat and a voice telling me I need these bad foods. It is an addiction that leads to more bad addictions…in a dietary way.

Also, the caffeine is not good for my anxiety. Yes, caffeine makes anxiety ten times worse or a hundred times worse depending on how much of the stuff you ingest. I could jump and leap to paranoid conclusions that make no sense in a single bound. In worse case scenarios upon drinking too much caffeinated diet soda I have more panic attack episodes even when I am not anxiously thinking about something. The anxiety is manageable and almost non existent when I keep up with my exercise routine and not ingesting any caffeine, but more importantly when I am not drinking any diet soda. I am convinced that other chemicals especially the fake sugars are doing something to my brain as well. I also know for a fact that my anxiety is a lot better when after a few months of adequate exercise, a good diet, and meditation (with a bit of yoga) I become a healthier happier person mentally and physically.

The only reason I wound up having some diet soda this weekend was before the diet I thought I drank and got rid of them all in my fridge, but only to discover I had one more box of 12 cans in the kitchen closet while cleaning. With any addiction it’s important to get rid of any temptation, and I should have done a more thorough inspection of my kitchen…

No worries, no one is perfect, and when we fall we get back up on the horse and try again. As long as we keep trying (even if there are setbacks) and do not give up it is still doing more than doing nothing. So, yes diet soda is the devil and that is my story and I am sticking to it.