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I wonder…

Things I wonder:

  1. Would people be interested if I wrote about book, film, or video game reviews in this blog?
  2. Do these pants make me look fat?
  3. Would I be able to keep up with book reviews?
  4. How do I import my hiking pictures to this blog?
  5. Where is Jimmy Hoffa buried?
  6. If I was more consistent in blogging would I get more followers for my blog?
  7. How do I get more followers?
  8. What am I going to have for lunch?
  9. Will I ever wear those jeans again?
  10. Why did I make this stupid list?

Gaming Back log and overwhelmed

As newer games come out that I am interested in and/or eager to play my back log becomes bigger and bigger. Some games I quit because I either got frustrated, bored, or sensory overload by the other shiny games. When you think you’ve hit your limit another new shiny game comes out. I have also a collecting habit. If I have the first part or two parts and another sequel or prequel comes out then I buy it even if I haven’t finished any of the other games. This is also true with my books. Because it’s a set and they are a family and must be together. lolz XD

Anyway, I think I am going to start slowing down and also put my foot down and only buy games from series that I enjoy and know from now on. Also, I will not buy the next game in a string of games if I haven’t finished the first one or first few. I need to pick a game and stick with it? I also want to cut my gaming time down to have time to do other hobbies in my free time and possibly get other stuff done.

I started back at the gym last week so yay for me! ^^;

Also, the changed meds the doctor prescribed kinda made me sick so I went back to taking that one pill once a day after I eat.

I want to drop fifteen pounds before the ren fair that is coming up. Wish me luck!

 

Back at the Gym

So I have been hitting the gym again as of late and I have dropped a few more pounds. I am down to 307 pounds. I am so close to getting under that 300 so badly I may be taking a few risks so I can get there and then I will diet as normal. I have a doctor’s appointment this Thursday and I visited the vampires today. I know my AC1 levels probably still did not drop, but I am going to give it one more shot before the next AC1 level blood glucose check. Then I will ask for a higher dose on one of my medications and actually pay the higher price because my insurance can be a jerk sometimes.

For those of you who do not know what AC1 levels are all I can explain it is when you are diabetic they take a snapshot of these levels every three to four months (no sooner or later) to keep a watch on your overall blood glucose (blood sugars) in your body. Yes, I still have to test my blood sugar twice a day to make sure I am not too low or too high. But, we need my AC1’s to lower so that I can be healthier. Normal AC1 levels are around 5.5 for normal people. When you get into the 6.0 and higher that’s when you get to the dangerous levels and you need to keep your sugar levels in your blood in check. Mine is 8.2 last time I had blood drawn. I hate taking medications, but if I have to I will and to change that or to add more medications makes me cringe and freak out because I do not like it. But, I digress if it still has not changed and does not change the next time I get my blood drawn in three months then I will ask about upping one of my medications that I take.

Now, if I lose the weight and get healthy and get my blood sugar levels to normal then I can do away with all my medication and live a somewhat normal non diabetic life. This means as explained to me by one of my physicians that he told me that I will always be diabetic…I just won’t have to take any medication. But! I still would have to keep checking my sugar levels just in case. So it is reversible…sort of. Your pancreas is like a car. If you run it into the ground, don’t take care of it, abuse the car it will be in pretty bad shape. You can start taking better care of that car, but it will never be the same as when you bought it brand new from the car store. You can fix it and it will live a healthy car life when you start taking better care of it and yet it will never be the same. You always have to check it to make sure it’s still in good condition. At least this is how that doctor explained it to me because I had told him I had doctors in the past tell me it’s completely reversible since I do not take insulin…yet (at that point in time and I haven’t gotten to that point…yet. thank goodness and I am trying not to.)

So there is your abridged crash course of Diabetes 101. If you have any questions about diabetes or blood sugar levels you can leave them in the comments below. Thank you for your time and patience in reading my blog!

If you subscribe to this blog…

Just a quick blog post and a warning.

I know some followers of this blog are following probably mostly because of my fitness goals/journey. That is fine.

Just in fair warning though when you get a notification reading that I have posted an update, and if it says anything else not related to fitness or the gym you might want to ignore it. Unless you want to know other stuff about me, my thoughts, other things/hobbies that I like, or my life then by all means read on.

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C25K: Week 6 – Day 2

Yesterday’s workout seemed to just take forever, which made my muscles more tired. It was a five minute warm up walk, then ten minutes for running, three minutes for walking, and then finally ten minutes for running again. Oh and then there is the five minute cool down where I just keep walking, but at a slower pace. My muscles, feet, and sides were paining me. I will reiterate and say that my Saturday runs I enjoy more and it is not as bad. My running partner said it would have gone by faster if I remembered my earbuds for my phone for music. She is right in a way and then I am not looking at my phone constantly to see the countdown of each section. But, the thing is I either forget my Fit Bit or I forget my earbuds and I have to have my steps count.

Tonight I go to my dance class and work on my belly dancing which shapes my stomach. It is raining outside pretty hard. It is a rare sight out in the desert especially in the middle of nowhere, so when it rains it floods, and when it floods no one can get anywhere. Also, there is this thing about people who live in the desert do not know how to drive in the rain let alone if it floods. Hopefully the weather is not too bad so I can get to my class.

C25K: Week 6 – Day 1

I would like to contribute the notion that yesterday’s run was difficult even though for some reason it was almost like the runs at the end of week four, but more like the beginning of week five. I think the main difference is that it is getting warmer earlier in the year. It is not enough to get out the shorts and short sleeved shirts, but when you are running outside or exercising outside then yes, the temperature makes all the difference especially when you live out in the middle of nowhere in the desert. This time my legs were really hurting and I still had to do the grocery shopping afterwards.

When I got home I ate dinner and then twenty minutes there after I passed out literally on my bed around seven and slept until two in the morning. I stayed away for about ten to fifteen minutes before passing out again asleep until ten minutes before my alarm wakes me up at five the next morning.

With that being said, I think my exercise routine is going well and I would like to do a video blog on YouTube. But, I am not sure it will be received well because even this website is still in its baby stage. Mostly if I do blog on YouTube it will be for any hiking adventures or photos and stuff like that. The reason for that is because I can not afford more bandwidth or GB or whatever it is called to hold everything and keep it all up on the site. I know I have 8 GB worth for starters, but as all of us tech people know is that can fill up fast. I hope that makes sense. If money and bandwidth were not an issue I would post videos and pictures directly to the website.

I hope to go on some hiking adventures soon. I do not know when I can make a trip out to some easy going hiking spots, because you have to start out easy and become more physically fit before taking on bigger hiking trails. I am actually excited thinking about it.

^_^

C25K: Week 5 – Day 1

Yesterday’s run was interesting. I think on the intervals I had to run I did some slow running. Week five was not so bad, but yet it was still difficult at the same time. I do not know how that is possible, but trust me it was possible and I felt better about running the first interval of the new week. I still thought I was going to die towards the end rather than the beginning of the run.

I also was getting some foot pain while running. The pain was minimal and I think that maybe due more towards the fact that I need to use lotion on my feet rather than blame it on the diabetes. I should not dismiss that the disease is the cause of the pain though. I do need to be careful because if I do get an injury then instead of taking one day off it might turn into week or more. I do not want that because it will drive me crazy.

In other news I still need to force myself to drink more water. I do not know why it is hard for me to do that when I was younger I drank water like a camel. I know as we all get older things change like your body, mind, and food likes. I have to remind myself I am not a spring chicken anymore. It is true that you are young as you feel and age is just a number, but that takes care of your mental health. Your mental health and how you feel are important. This does not give you the license to do a cannonball off the high dive and do some foolish daredevil stunt like you are twelve again. You are not twelve so do not do stupid stuff that has a high possibility of you breaking bones, spraining something, or getting some other horrible injury. If you get injured how can you keep training?

I am not a kid, I am not a teenager, I am not even a young adult, and I am not elderly either just to be clear. I am somewhere in the middle trying to find my middle ground. I am trying to find my space to exist in and a place where I can breathe comfortably in my own skin.

I am absolutely convinced that diet soda is the devil.

I had some diet soda on Saturday night because I had not had any for awhile. I also did this as an experiment. Then something happened the next morning when I got on the scale. I gained two pounds apparently. Yes, you can chock it up to (especially for women) the body’s weight fluctuates, and one should not weigh themselves frequently. Whenever I go on these health journeys I always find myself frustrated, bewildered, and I want instant gratification. I know logically that the weight gain did not happen over night because it was a combination of many years of bad food choices and lack of motivation to be active. It certainly is not going to come off in a fort night just because I cranked up my activity level and started making better food choices.

As far as diet soda goes, in my opinion, is worse than regular soda and yet I can not drink that either because I am diabetic. I might as well drink battery acid because soda is not good for you period. When I drink diet soda I get bad cramps in my legs and headaches, my stomach is bloated, and I start craving sugary and heavily starched foods. I notice once I stop drinking this crap (and it takes a good while) that I stop craving a lot of the bad things that are not good for my body. I mean it doesn’t eliminate all, but at least I’m not jumping out of my seat and a voice telling me I need these bad foods. It is an addiction that leads to more bad addictions…in a dietary way.

Also, the caffeine is not good for my anxiety. Yes, caffeine makes anxiety ten times worse or a hundred times worse depending on how much of the stuff you ingest. I could jump and leap to paranoid conclusions that make no sense in a single bound. In worse case scenarios upon drinking too much caffeinated diet soda I have more panic attack episodes even when I am not anxiously thinking about something. The anxiety is manageable and almost non existent when I keep up with my exercise routine and not ingesting any caffeine, but more importantly when I am not drinking any diet soda. I am convinced that other chemicals especially the fake sugars are doing something to my brain as well. I also know for a fact that my anxiety is a lot better when after a few months of adequate exercise, a good diet, and meditation (with a bit of yoga) I become a healthier happier person mentally and physically.

The only reason I wound up having some diet soda this weekend was before the diet I thought I drank and got rid of them all in my fridge, but only to discover I had one more box of 12 cans in the kitchen closet while cleaning. With any addiction it’s important to get rid of any temptation, and I should have done a more thorough inspection of my kitchen…

No worries, no one is perfect, and when we fall we get back up on the horse and try again. As long as we keep trying (even if there are setbacks) and do not give up it is still doing more than doing nothing. So, yes diet soda is the devil and that is my story and I am sticking to it.

Sore, but still running…

Last night I had my Arabic Dancing class (Belly Dance) and danced for two hours! It felt good and I was so excited to be dancing again. We stretched before and after class and a little in between so that helped with this morning’s run. I’m a big person so when I talk about using the C25K app and running I really mean baby jogging, but in hindsight it’s running to me. I hope to actually run as I keep training. Everyone’s gotta start somewhere!

I got up at 5:30 this morning to run at six with a friend because we usually go running at nine in the morning, but she has meetings later and stuff. I think it was a lot better to run that early in the morning because then there are no people around at all or getting in the way. It was kind of dark and at one point I almost tripped over a piece of broken pine cone. I wondered where the hell did that come from? I looked around and saw a row of pine trees on the other side of the street. ^_^;

It was really cold and I should have brought my sweater, but I didn’t want to be too hot when I ran. My hands were freezing and I had to stick them in my pockets. I had the volume on loud enough on my phone so I could hear it if I had it in my pocket. I also had my up beat J-Pop anime music play list on blast. As soon as I get warm I know I will start to feel the aches and pains. So, it is rest for me Sunday and Monday from exercise, but not laundry and work unfortunately. The good news is all the endorphins and everything else are up and running that I’m in a good mood and I can’t go back to sleep. I must of fell asleep last night around 9:30pm so I think I got my eight hours in of sleep. I am about to eat breakfast which is one of those Quaker instant oatmeal things in a cup and it’s the brown sugar flavor. I just fix those up and add a little cream and it’s delicious. I’m glad I made the decision not to eat before my training. If I would have done that then while running it would have been a scene from the Glass Throne where Celaena first starts training for the Champion competition and her and Chaol were running and she would have to stop to wretch. Yeah…if I eat breakfast I want it to stay in my stomach and not on the sidewalk thank you.

The rest of today’s itinerary probably would be some laundry, maybe some reading, continue writing that play, and maybe some poetry writing later. I want to put up a section on this blog for my poetry. Also I will be praying that my allergies don’t come back. I usually take a 24 hour Claritan, but I don’t want to be taking that everyday because then my body gets used to it and then it’ll be ineffective.

I’ll try and blog my progress as much as I can, but I do tend to forget and hopefully things will work out and I will lose those fifty pounds by June so I can hop on a plane and go see my friend on the other side of the country. I want to be comfortable on a plane and especially if it might be a five to seven hour flight. Wish me luck! ^_^