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Books and Games

I am frustrated with myself for setting a ten book reading goal for the year. I am a reader and I love to read, but life gets busy, and then there is the whole pesky book ADHD. So I could be reading a lot and yet I am reading three to five different books simultaneously in a month. Hence, I do not get a novel read and finished so I can complete my reading goal. A co-worker told me it can be done if I play less games and read more. That may be true, but it is not like I can’t put a controller down to go read. The reason is games take longer to finish than books and when your interested or having fun then time passes without you noticing and the next thing you know it’s time for bed so you can get up for work in the morning…. okay that was a long winded sentence…

I tried making an organized stable schedule so I can equally do all my hobbies, but then things fall out of sync like they always do and then it’s hard to get back to the schedule you set in the first place. I am not making excuses…maybe complaining a little, but maybe if I tried harder and had more will power? I know this can be done and once you do something over and over again for a month it sticks as a habit.

The current book I am reading is the third in the Fallen series. The title is “Passion” from Lauren Kate. I admit the ending to the second book, Torment, was really good and I started reading Passion and it’s a bit more involved and interesting. You know when there are four or more books in the series that the first book and maybe the second book is going to be drawn out with the plot because the author has to set things up, or is still setting things up and that could be hard to read through. Because if the plot moves so slowly it makes irritated because I’m waiting for things to be revealed. Hopefully I can if I push myself that I can still make that ten novel goal for this year. I have four books done all ready.

Is weight loss surgery the best thing?

I have talked to many people and friends that have gotten weight loss surgery done. Most of my friends have gotten the sleeve done and I know my aunt an uncle years ago back in the late 80’s or early 90’s (I can not remember) got their stomachs stapled through surgery, lost the weight (mostly) and then gained it back. If I am going to decide to do this I do not want to shell out a 4,000 dollar co-pay from my insurance just for it not to work.

Now what I am about to write about does not apply to people who truly do need the surgery and cannot do it on their own. For example if people have a thyroid problem then yes it is a lot harder to lose weight and in some cases with those problems makes them gain weight. I am sure there are other physical challenges and reasons why, for some people, surgery maybe their only option.

For the rest of us, and yes I do mean us with me included need to get up off our butts and stop being lazy. Surgery is not a crutch of a fix, a quick fix, nor a fix all to patch up laziness which could simply be fixed by changing your diet. I pushed myself to go to the gym twice this week after work. Monday and yesterday I went and did my cardio on Monday and walked on the treadmill on Tuesday. But, I have been working hard for the past two weeks or so. I have lost ten pounds. My family and friends keep telling me that surgery will be the best thing for me, will be a good idea, and the famous “you SHOULD do it” reason! It’s now becoming like a cult/bandwagon thing and I do not know what scares me more is that so many people need/do it or that it looks like a fad/cult culture thing. Not only that, but there is a high rate of people gaining their weight back and/or have many complications. Every body’s body is different, but why put yourself through that and waste time, money, and energy? Plus when you lose weight that fast you’re going to have a lot of hanging loose skin. If you go to the gym and tone up with weights you will still have sagging skin, but not as bad. Then you will have to pay for surgery to get that removed and tucked in. If you tell your insurance it’s not for cosmetic reasons and trust me if you got weight loss surgery at 400 lbs. + there are tons of reasons why it is bad to leave it. Your skin could chaff, there could be bacteria getting in there, and all sorts of things. So that would be another high co-pay of whatever your insurance tells you once you’ve convinced them it is not cosmetic, but actual life saving loose skin removal. I just want to do a one time co-pay for loose skin removal not for both weight loss surgery and that.

I hate doctors and the thought of my stomach being cut into and drastically doing a force change in my life does not sound appealing. My doctor when I spoke with him said I would be perfect candidate. I am all for changing my diet and making smarter choices, but when I was speaking with one of my friends who had gotten the surgery and she lost almost 100 pounds with her surgery (she did the sleeve too) and told me she now cannot eat very much, but she cannot drink any liquids a half an hour before she eats and she has to wait a half an hour after she eats. That is not normal to me. Doctors and health professionals tell you to drink a glass of water before meals so that you’ll fill up more and become full faster. There are other things that do not agree with me that you have to do after surgery. I know I can do this on my own if I stop being lazy and take control of my life. No more stop and go diet and exercise routines because this should be a change of life for me. This should be my new lifestyle and change is apart of life.

 

Writing and more writing…

I am more than determined to write this novel and get it done before summer ends. This way all I have to do is edit stuff through out fall and winter. I know I can do this despite a lot of academic challenges and doubts that I may have. I have also been really thinking about using a pen name if and when it ever gets published. It’s something different from the usual vampire love story, werewolf, fantasy, sci-fi, or a story about wizards. You know the usual norm that kicks off as the latest story book trend. I’m putting some other creature in the spotlight this time.

I’ve been writing in parts instead of chapters because my mom edits it and she thinks chapters should end after five paragraphs and I argue with her that it makes it too short. Then when I started double spacing it for easier editing she allowed for more paragraphs, but I still think that makes for very short chapters. Maybe I should market my book with short chapters to teens with short attention spans? Well, I do want my book to get kids to think about reading and to actually get them to read. I want to revolutionize the young adult book genre.

So I guess I am finally getting very passionate about something. Not that I have never ever been passionate about something, but I have gotten excited and have hobbies and I have been passionate about them. The thing is I tend to not complete things because either something else catches my interest or I lose that passion or get unexcited because it’s not new anymore. If anyone is reading this just for your information do not judge my writing on my blog posts. I can write when I concentrate, but when I blog it’s just letting go and typing stuff up and doing free writes to have freedom. I don’t want to be worried about correctness at every turn because then that takes a toll on my brain. Wish me luck and hopefully more writing ideas pop into my brain.  ^^;

Update V1.8 and other stuff…

Sorry, I know I have not blogged in a long while. I had a small “depression and anxiety spell”. This sometimes happens when it gets closer to the date of when my father passed. I did manage not to completely stop going to the gym. I also got caught up with watching American Ninja Warrior again. I think I want to train for it again and what stopped me last time is I realized heights were actually involved on the show and I am afraid of heights. I want to overcome this fear by getting fit and trying my hand at Spelunking to conquer this fear.

I am afraid of a doctor’s appointment at the end of the month of July. It is not my regular doctor, but a podiatrist and I am not too happy that my regular doctor said since I am diabetic it is now mandatory to see a foot doctor. I’m afraid they will not be very nice and do things to my feet that might be scary and/or painful and I just do not want to go. In other news though I started writing my novel! Yay! Mom is editing the first chapter and I realized I should have double spaced it for easier editing. I am currently writing chapter three….

Yes I can count! Here’s the thing…while editing my mom said my first chapter was too long and broke it up into two. Hence, I need to start writing chapter three. I need to read more books for practice and I know my reading has slowed down, but I will get back on the horse so to speak. Back to the gym tomorrow morning as well. I keep forgetting I have training to do for my half marathon that I am suppose to be able to walk and complete September 2018. When things are really far away into the future I tend to forget about them. ^^;

Good news is I lost ten pounds. 🙂

Updates:

  • Bookshelf Life
  • Gamer 4 Life
  • Training
  • Current Obsessions

 

 

Summer Gym Boot Camp Plans

My running partner and I have decided that things are really busy right now so we are trying to do our own thing. But, starting in June we are going to the gym in the mornings five days a week then do our running on Saturday mornings. If it is even too hot on Saturday early mornings then we will just head for the gym again. I’m putting myself on a better diet. I am also replacing my favorite staple of mashed potatoes with mashed cauliflower to cut down on the carbs. I got to get ready for that half marathon next year in September.

I would also like to apologize for not blogging more frequently like I have. I do not want my blog to be solely about my health journey, but other things like my other hobbies. I want to review films, books I have finished reading, and maybe game reviews. I could also talk about other things as well and maybe get more into cooking so I can update my recipe tab on here. I will be able to write more these coming summer months. 🙂

Hospital Stay…

Sorry, I have not blogged in awhile, but I had been admitted into a hospital for the past week or so. I was a bit under the weather before, but then it really got to me Tuesday evening going into Wednesday morning last week. I did not go into the hospital because of my diabetes or anything I did (thank goodness!). I initially went in because of a very bad viral stomach bug that wrecked havoc on my whole immune system and body. It was so bad that it rendered my heart so much stress it was giving me chest pains every time I breathed in. I could go on about the health care system and my whole journey through the insurance process and the two hospitals that I stayed at, but I am going to spare everyone the details of that horror story for another day. Today I am back at work, still recovering slowly, but yet recovering and hopefully after my follow up visit with my regular physician on Friday I can get back to training next week? But, all that I have been through took me down a couple of notches and I think I have to start over….again.

 

This is frustrating.

 

P.S. I also have gotten new books in the mail while I was away at the hospital. Another blog post about them later or tomorrow.

Burned like burnt bacon

I took a trip with a friend out to a county fair and we put on SPF 50 sunscreen. We did not have a mirror, but I did the best I could. I got burned on the top of my head (should have worn a hat), my right shoulder and shoulder blade (this was due to my shirt moving because of my purse strap), and I think I got sun poisoning from the heat. I’ve been very tired and drinking a lot of water. I had to return to work because I had just been on vacation. Also, one other health thing happened…again…for the third time this month when it’s only suppose to happen once a month. So getting to the gym maybe hard this week, but if not today I am going to go tomorrow and walk on the treadmill. It’s at least something instead of nothing.

I want to live.

Live

Living

Life

Life giving

Alive

A living

…more like I am “living impaired” at the moment.

I have been reading Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury and it has been giving me thoughts and ideas on a social philosophy of society. This is the first time I am reading this book and it feels familiar. It probably feels familiar because I have read Ray Bradbury’s other works like “Sound of Thunder”. I am not saying that all his written works are all the same, but each writer has a style or writes in a unique way. This book is very different and yet very familiar in a way that it too makes you think. What if in the not too distant future books were being burned and a whole society being dumbed down to simplistic thoughts because they did not have to think at all?

Oh by the way…I had caffeine this morning.

This book was written around in the 1950’s and some things in that book are true in today’s society. For example, Mildred’s “TV parlor” and how she wants a fourth wall and she loves watching her television family which sounds, and basically is, reality television. There is no plot to the show and it is just a bunch of people talking to each other. Then there is society where everything is blaring at them all the time and they are stuck watching these television programs and music and tune out reality…they tune out people and disconnect. I feel today’s society is heading that way with all the technology that it is a wonder anyone talks to a real person. I want to live and enjoy life and not be tied down to technology, and connect with real people, and not shut the world out.

I have only gotten to page 80 so far and if you have taken a look at my “Book Shelf Life” tab on my website you will see I am reading a whole bunch of other books because I have book ADHD apparently. I will add this one to the list and if you have read the book before and would like to discuss or have thoughts/discussions on what I have read so far please comment below. 🙂

 

Buffets should be avoided

Bad news…I went to a buffet for dinner last night. The good news is that I did not have three or more plates full of food. I realized I can not eat like I could at a buffet like before. It was one plateful of food and I felt really full. I also had some diet coke because my medicine was making me sick to my stomach. But, once I was eating and sipping the diet coke it got better.

And today I feel like my body is in safe mode. I woke up this morning with cold sweats. I have done this before on occasion. I think the mountain hike yesterday afternoon was a bit much and not because of the walk, but because of the slight altitude change. That could have done something maybe?  I roughly enjoyed the hike more so because it was a paved trail, but going back was uphill and I wanted to get to the car faster so I over exerted myself by walking faster. I was not alone because I had a couple of friends with me so no worries. It was a mile mountain trail hike with stuff to read along the way telling you about the trail. It was amazingly quiet up there until other hikers were walking up the walkway.

All in all it was a nice day trip in the late afternoon. I start training at the gym again today after work. Wish me luck! 🙂

 

Random Blog Post

Since there is too much stuff going on this week the second round of the C25K has been postponed until Tuesday of next week. Also, I have been day dreaming of a vacation to Hawaii. Why? Because of surf, sun, and water my friend. I also have not been on a plane in twenty years and I am a bit anxious about that. I am suppose to visit my friend and her husband in DC in June. Vacations are expensive and and Hawaii is really expensive. I’ll have to save every penny I have got before making any plans to go there, and besides I would want to lose weight even more so that I can look good in a bathing suit. 🙂

So while looking for flights my mind wandered and I was thinking of the warm beach sand and ocean water. The pictures look so beautiful and I would love to take pictures and video and make a ton of memories. With my luck I’ll get sunburned really bad because I hate putting sunscreen on. I have never liked the feel of it on my skin. I do like the sun and warmth, but I hate the heat and I do not do so well in 80 degree weather. Weather that is 73-75 degrees is perfect though for me. I know I am a weirdo. ^_^;