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Holiday Happiness?

I’ve been trying to get excited for the holidays and forcing happiness is never good. Maybe I’m not excited about Thanksgiving this year. I might be a little excited for Christmas this year because I want to put up all the pretty lights and stuff. I have forgone putting up a Christmas tree for the last few years because of cats. I have two cats and they are very mischievous. I don’t want them to eat the tree or knock it down and hit something or someone. But, this year I have a plan that should stop them from going anywhere near the tree.

The holidays have always been difficult for me even if it didn’t show as much or at all when I was a kid so no one ever knew. I was always distracted by the lights and shiny things. I always also felt that I HAD to do things like give friends and family presents, smile and be happy just because it’s Christmas time, sing carols, and be apart of the holiday activities. I felt like I didn’t have a say I was just told to do these things without choosing to do them on my own. Even if it wasn’t my parents telling me to participate then I involuntary participated on my own, or smiled because I didn’t want to be ostracized from my classmates or peers. Christmas to me has always been a pain in the ass. I never understood the whole over commercialized holiday where capitalism is celebrated on a holy day meant for a fictional baby that was born in a manger.

No offense.

I just think differently and I do respect other people’s faith. Whatever you believe in keep doing that. Whatever gets you through the day and helps you out that’s great. It just isn’t for me.

The holidays should be meant for keeping families together and spending time and not about material things or anything else for that matter.

I’m really trying this year to be excited and happy about Christmas and I’m going to cross my fingers that my cats don’t knock down the tree when I put it up, or I will lose my last shred of holiday cheer and then no more trees. My plan will work though and I’m feeling positive about it. So good luck to everyone out there who have a cat or cats and are putting up trees this year. Be careful not to use tinsel because cats love to eat that stuff and they will get sick! …that and you’ll have to clean shiny poop out of the litter box.

Happy Easter!

Well, while being on break I was able to go to the gym twice. Then tomorrow morning I am going to do my run with my running partner. I got on the scale this morning and it was not pretty. Being on vacation sucks sometimes and you do not realize the damage you do until it is too late. I do not know if I mentioned this in a post before, but I did receive bad news last Saturday on the 8th. Before my test I learned a friend passed away and he had been battling brain cancer for a long time. I gathered my strength and took my test and the irony is that I did better in math than I did in reading. This is ironic because I am better in the language arts than I am in mathematics. I was just seven points away from passing my math. SEVEN!

If studying for a half an hour a week for two months gave me a fourteen point jump from my first scoring in November then I shall have to study harder. I am determined and I can do this to achieve my goals. This also applies to my weight loss journey. I hate calling it “my weight loss journey”. It sounds asinine and I have been depressed about it. I talked to my mother about getting weight loss surgery. I also talked to a friend who had got it done and she lost 87 pounds in six months. My mother thinks I can still do it on my own and I do not need the surgery. I have been trying to do it on my own ever since the sixth grade. I am so frustrated and I hate these diets or to be on a diet. You do not truly want something until you are told you can not have it. There are a lot of mixed feelings about getting weight loss surgery. I also do not want to have surgery only to just gain the weight back.

Sunday, I am cooking Easter dinner and having one of my uncles over for dinner along with mom and myself. Hopefully I will not over cook the turkey. I hope everyone else has a pleasant Easter and good blessings to all.