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I took a step and then another…

I went to the gym on Friday and then skipped Saturday and then went yesterday, Sunday morning and I was going to go today on Memorial Day. There are a couple of reasons holding me back from going.

  1. Memorial Day Drivers (I don’t want to get into an accident)
  2. Women’s issues happened to me yesterday evening, but thankfully I am not in a lot of pain. (knock on wood and hope for the best)
  3. I neglected my laundry with being busy and wanting to rest, but it seems like I keep getting roped into staying busy. This has it’s good and bad points.
  4. I’m not just making excuses to make excuses.

If I were to go to the gym in this state I would need to wear black pants just in case and well, I ran out and therefore that is why I have to stay home and do laundry. But, I am on a mission. It’s 124 days until my brother’s wedding and I am determined to look good in a dress and look good in the videos and photos. I don’t want to look like a cute potato in a dress. Did I mention I hate wearing dresses? It’s the tomboy in me.

I am also on a new medication that hopefully will help me on this journey and focus this summer to finish the goals I set for myself. I want to lose at least a healthy range of 30 pounds this summer. But, since I am so heavy and with this new medication I do not mind losing 40-50 pounds and then stopping for my body to adjust as long as a lot of inches come off with it. I want to get under the 300 pound mark and so far I have lost like 2-3 pounds. I could weight myself more to see if that I lost more, but lady problems with the bloating prevents me from seeing any progress. I also have a bad habit of not drinking enough water. I used to drink a lot of water when I was younger and I don’t know how I got into the habit of not drinking enough water. I am just not thirsty enough I guess? It’s not the taste. I have a great water system in the home and I have had so many friends suggest water flavorings that are either natural fruits to artificial diabetic friendly flavorings. To be honest though, to flavor my water with any of these options would make me want to drink water less. To me water should be just that…water. Any weird flavorings and subconsciously my brain would start thinking I am trying to poison it.

Also, I wanted to mention that I joined a weight loss program called Real Appeal. I found out about it from work and other co-workers have joined. Now I am not a person to jump on band wagons or jump off the bridge with everyone else like a freaking sheep. But, I decided to try anything once especially when you hear good things. There’s a lot of things I don’t like about it and there are a few things that I do like about it. I got a free kit in the mail with a digital scale, exercise equipment thing (I have no idea what they call it), work books, a plate with color coded portions of how you should eat, exercise dvd’s, and stuff. And then there is the live video classes you can do from your computer or smart phone. The class is thirty minutes and you set up what time you want to join. I’ll keep this blog updated with all that stuff.

Wish me luck!

P.S. That one doctor on my last doctor’s visit on May 3rd pissed me off so I am going to prove I don’t need that medication with the two really bad side effects. I’m going to prove her wrong. I can do this without it.

Doctor’s appointment today…

I’m going to see the doctor this afternoon. I had all my blood tests done because it’s that time again to check it. We’ll see what my AC1’s are and where I’m at and probably discuss a new diet and all that jazz. I’m hoping to get help getting my ears cleaned out because it’s getting hard to hear on occasion. Wish me luck!

A way to trick your brain…

One trick of trying to not over eat and to also start eating healthier is to trick your brain. One idea is to use smaller plates so that when you fill up that plate your brain thinks it’s eating a lot of food, but it isn’t and by doing that you reduce the number of calories you intake. You might want to make guidelines for what can go on that plate. For example, you probably want to outlaw fried foods, sugary foods, high carb foods, high in fat foods, and stuff. It’s your body so the best guidelines should be made by between a health professional and you.

Words about the six meals a day…

If your in a job that keeps you very busy and there is no time for a small meal or snack I suggest quick protein shakes for meal replacements. If not maybe a granola bar…? maybe? That way you trick your brain into being fed all the time. I know that I probably could do the six small meals…I just don’t like it.

Drink copious amounts of water…

This fills you up as well and makes you less hungry is another trick. Also, not only does it fill you up it cleanses your body of toxins and other things and keeps you hydrated. This is a good thing trust me. You should be taking a trip to the bathroom at least six times a day. If you do not urinate six times a day then that’s not healthy… (Side note: If you have to go three times that amount you might want to talk to your doctor.)

And there you have it….three tricks to use on our brains without them knowing it. Okay it is your brain and it does know, but it’s more of tricking the brain through the eyes and an optical illusion thing…I dunno. But, hopefully these things work! I know the water one does and the plate one, but the six small meals does not work with me.

 

Once a habit…

I think if I break my fast food and diet soda addiction that will be it. I try to do things in moderation and it either works for awhile, doesn’t work at all, or becomes too much. It feels like breaking up with a significant other. You know they’re toxic for you, but you keep going back anyway thinking it’ll be different the next time. Your anxiety, brain, and cravings lie to you. Don’t listen to them and don’t give in. I’m sure once I start eating healthier foods and get into a good exercise routine as a better healthier habit I can kick those bad habits to the curb. I’ll start next week as I gather up my sure fire plan and when I am able to go back to the gym again.

Well…here’s to my health?

Getting old with age…

As we age we get wrinkles, joint pain, and our minds aren’t as sharp as they used to be. But is that something to celebrate or to be feared as we get older? Here’s two ways to look at it: You can either look on the cynical side and think about these things in a negative manner, or you can look on the bright and positive side.

With age comes wisdom and those wrinkles? You’ve earned them. Nobody knows your body, but you so you know what it has been through and what it’s going through right now. No one knows the future so there’s no point in worrying about it. We should treat our bodies better because it’s the only one we got. If we want to stay around long enough on this planet for the various reasons like family, friends, adventure, or the pursuit of happiness then we should take care of it. The first step in doing that is talking with your doctor.

The next step is getting on a healthy diet plan that works for you. You shouldn’t think of a diet as in “Die” but with a “T”, but as in the logical and anthropological sense of “diet” what do you eat? What does your diet consists of? This is a change of life and habits and I know it’s easier said than done, but small changes at first is the way to go. You are not going to feel the good changes that a healthier diet will do for you at least six weeks down the road so don’t give up! Your diet is the most important to your health more than exercise because you can’t out run a bad diet…and it’s just bad for your heart that way.

The third step is picking an exercise and fitness routine that works for you. Yes, you will talk to your doctor about this as well. Also, if you can work with a personal trainer to help you figure out a routine that’s best for you. Once you have that down and you start slow at first and then once you get used to it you can up your physical fitness routine.

The fourth step is keeping a journal to write down your thoughts and to, in a way, work things out and also keep a record of your health journey. That way when you do hit the six week mark you can look back on your progress.

Aging doesn’t have to be so bad. Things are going to happen to your body with age, but you can make it a bit easier by doing a little self care for yourself. No one else is going to do it for you. YOU have to make the effort for YOU. If you don’t then how do you expect anyone else to love or care for you if you can’t seem to love or care for yourself. Make your own light first and shine brightly.

GYM TIME

I got to the gym finally yesterday and it turned my legs into jello. ^^;

Then I tried signing up for some martial arts training and realized my physical health limitations and got really depressed by the end of the day. Maybe I should just train at the gym and when I get closer to my goal and maybe get one thing fixed through surgery I can try again? I know I am not a spring chicken, but when I was younger and did martial arts my nightmares would go away and I would actually sleep well. That was among other improvements I was seeing back then. The wedding is still in September and my brother decided to have it on a Sunday. I guess the venue is cheaper that way because who books a wedding on a Sunday?

Saturday’s Run…

I ran a bit too hard trying to keep up with my running partner two days ago and my legs are still somewhat sore. I want to do Just Dance 2017, but I think I will wait for tomorrow. I’m starting to get a handle on organizing things and time management. I just finished my homework for my college class. Now I have to study all the Japanese adjectives before Wednesday because we are going to be quizzed on them. Tonight’s dinner is veggie hot dogs. It’s a new brand so I don’t know how they will turn out. Hopefully it will turn out wonderful and I can do away with regular hot dogs.

Because of the run on Saturday I think I also hurt my left foot on the left side of it. When runners run I think they call it a corn or something…or a bunyan? Or whatever runners get. I’ll have a doctor look at it the next time I go in. I need to spend more time in the gym. I am exercising, but I am starting to find things to get my cardio in with out the gym. Either that or things have got me really lazy to actually move to go to the gym. I will figure this out.

New Hiking Spots…

I have been contemplating new hiking spots to walk by myself. I know you’re not suppose to go on hikes by yourself and that it’s dangerous, but I would like to go on small hikes by myself or at least on hikes where I know there is a lot of traffic of people. I would never go on a big hike completely by myself no matter how much I am inspired by Cheryl Strayed’s book. I admire her for what she did and making herself come to terms with her own demons and healing herself. But, I have to admit that hiking the PCT alone was the most asinine thing to do on the planet. Things were different back then in the mid’ nineties, but still a lot of things could have happened.

I tested my blood pressure last week here and there and I have come to the conclusion that it only raises due to stress. I don’t think I need medication for it if my blood pressure only rises due to stress. Therefore, I am going to practice meditation more seriously and hope for the best. I think I should have a better sleeping schedule and get more sleep and have a better diet. I’ve been a bit depressed on and off again for the past couple of weeks. This happens every few years around Valentine’s day. I’m usually ecstatic about celebrating Single’s Awareness Day (S.A.D.) because also the acronym makes me laugh. I am going to try and think more positively to counter the blues this year.

I’ve also started shortening my time with video games and only play on the weekends. The experiment so far is that I can’t wait to play to relax and then yet I found this week was still blah…

Then I ask myself questions of if I am growing out of it, losing my patience with them, or as I try to get healthier my mind and body want to do more productive things. Maybe it’s all of the above? Maybe it’s the depression’s fault. I want things to change. Things are changing. Things have to change. Change is constant.

 

Stress and Health…

So I finally made two connections to two things and figured out what was going on after trying to figure out what the cause was for my dizziness. What am I talking about?

Periodically and sporadically, I would get short three minute dizzy spells and on a rarer occasion they last five minutes. I decided to get my blood pressure checked not too long after a dizzy spell yesterday and it came out to 151/87 and they said it was a little high. I then checked it this morning and it was still slightly high…I remember I think it was 131/6…something?

I think my high blood pressure is anxiety/stress induced. I’ve been stressing out a lot these past….well since January.

So now I am in “Operation: Chill out and Calm the Frak down” mode and I also am dieting really hard to get my weight down. Because high blood pressure will go away when you lose weight and on the plus side my diabetes will get better. This past week I also had not had time to exercise so that part is my fault. There should be no excuses. It was and is very scary of this new discovery. I really, really, really do NOT want another medication put on me. I’m also thinking about my father and I’m starting to be like him (health wise) and it makes me more angry than scared.

I know my mom keeps telling me not to worry so much and not to worry about everything. It’s a lot like how you can’t tell a cancer patient to stop having cancer. It doesn’t work that way. Anxiety has to be worked through. You can’t just turn it off and on by sheer will or like a light switch.

I know I have many things to work on and maybe I’ll take it really seriously this time and not pull what my dad pulled and be good for three weeks so not to be put on insulin because he’s afraid of needles and then go back to the way you were and then die anyway.

I am not my father.

I’m still alive.

….I have a lot on my mind.

Many posts…

I finished awhile ago “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed. I got inspired to change a few things and I do want to go hiking more and change my name for a change that feels closer to me. I keep thinking it’s not okay to have many metamorphosis through out one’s life. But, it is okay and it’s okay to keep changing.

There was other stuff that had happened in my short absence of not posting, but I’ll be ready to post that another day.