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GYM TIME

I got to the gym finally yesterday and it turned my legs into jello. ^^;

Then I tried signing up for some martial arts training and realized my physical health limitations and got really depressed by the end of the day. Maybe I should just train at the gym and when I get closer to my goal and maybe get one thing fixed through surgery I can try again? I know I am not a spring chicken, but when I was younger and did martial arts my nightmares would go away and I would actually sleep well. That was among other improvements I was seeing back then. The wedding is still in September and my brother decided to have it on a Sunday. I guess the venue is cheaper that way because who books a wedding on a Sunday?

Saturday’s Run…

I ran a bit too hard trying to keep up with my running partner two days ago and my legs are still somewhat sore. I want to do Just Dance 2017, but I think I will wait for tomorrow. I’m starting to get a handle on organizing things and time management. I just finished my homework for my college class. Now I have to study all the Japanese adjectives before Wednesday because we are going to be quizzed on them. Tonight’s dinner is veggie hot dogs. It’s a new brand so I don’t know how they will turn out. Hopefully it will turn out wonderful and I can do away with regular hot dogs.

Because of the run on Saturday I think I also hurt my left foot on the left side of it. When runners run I think they call it a corn or something…or a bunyan? Or whatever runners get. I’ll have a doctor look at it the next time I go in. I need to spend more time in the gym. I am exercising, but I am starting to find things to get my cardio in with out the gym. Either that or things have got me really lazy to actually move to go to the gym. I will figure this out.

New Hiking Spots…

I have been contemplating new hiking spots to walk by myself. I know you’re not suppose to go on hikes by yourself and that it’s dangerous, but I would like to go on small hikes by myself or at least on hikes where I know there is a lot of traffic of people. I would never go on a big hike completely by myself no matter how much I am inspired by Cheryl Strayed’s book. I admire her for what she did and making herself come to terms with her own demons and healing herself. But, I have to admit that hiking the PCT alone was the most asinine thing to do on the planet. Things were different back then in the mid’ nineties, but still a lot of things could have happened.

I tested my blood pressure last week here and there and I have come to the conclusion that it only raises due to stress. I don’t think I need medication for it if my blood pressure only rises due to stress. Therefore, I am going to practice meditation more seriously and hope for the best. I think I should have a better sleeping schedule and get more sleep and have a better diet. I’ve been a bit depressed on and off again for the past couple of weeks. This happens every few years around Valentine’s day. I’m usually ecstatic about celebrating Single’s Awareness Day (S.A.D.) because also the acronym makes me laugh. I am going to try and think more positively to counter the blues this year.

I’ve also started shortening my time with video games and only play on the weekends. The experiment so far is that I can’t wait to play to relax and then yet I found this week was still blah…

Then I ask myself questions of if I am growing out of it, losing my patience with them, or as I try to get healthier my mind and body want to do more productive things. Maybe it’s all of the above? Maybe it’s the depression’s fault. I want things to change. Things are changing. Things have to change. Change is constant.

 

Stress and Health…

So I finally made two connections to two things and figured out what was going on after trying to figure out what the cause was for my dizziness. What am I talking about?

Periodically and sporadically, I would get short three minute dizzy spells and on a rarer occasion they last five minutes. I decided to get my blood pressure checked not too long after a dizzy spell yesterday and it came out to 151/87 and they said it was a little high. I then checked it this morning and it was still slightly high…I remember I think it was 131/6…something?

I think my high blood pressure is anxiety/stress induced. I’ve been stressing out a lot these past….well since January.

So now I am in “Operation: Chill out and Calm the Frak down” mode and I also am dieting really hard to get my weight down. Because high blood pressure will go away when you lose weight and on the plus side my diabetes will get better. This past week I also had not had time to exercise so that part is my fault. There should be no excuses. It was and is very scary of this new discovery. I really, really, really do NOT want another medication put on me. I’m also thinking about my father and I’m starting to be like him (health wise) and it makes me more angry than scared.

I know my mom keeps telling me not to worry so much and not to worry about everything. It’s a lot like how you can’t tell a cancer patient to stop having cancer. It doesn’t work that way. Anxiety has to be worked through. You can’t just turn it off and on by sheer will or like a light switch.

I know I have many things to work on and maybe I’ll take it really seriously this time and not pull what my dad pulled and be good for three weeks so not to be put on insulin because he’s afraid of needles and then go back to the way you were and then die anyway.

I am not my father.

I’m still alive.

….I have a lot on my mind.

Many posts…

I finished awhile ago “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed. I got inspired to change a few things and I do want to go hiking more and change my name for a change that feels closer to me. I keep thinking it’s not okay to have many metamorphosis through out one’s life. But, it is okay and it’s okay to keep changing.

There was other stuff that had happened in my short absence of not posting, but I’ll be ready to post that another day.

New Plan…

I have been very busy and I’ve had a lot going on from the last time I posted. Sorry for anyone that does follow me. But, here is a quick update…

I bought Just Dance 2017 for the Switch and love it. It’s better than DDR and I can see me using it for a long time with out it getting out dated in a way of me always ruining dance pads and replacing them. The dance pads are hard to come by and they aren’t always working for me. I think I will enjoy this form of video game exercise for a long time to come.

Next is the hiking trip with the Very Awesome Girls this Saturday. I will blog about it after and hopefully post some pictures. I want to be more active and I want to get an A in my Japanese class. New plans and new ways of thinking and I want to document it all by writing in my paper journals.

I want to read more and keep my brain more active. I splurged a bit and bought six new books to read. I figure if reading just a bit normal than usual made my points on the Reading part of my big test jump up high…think of the brain power when I read even more! Oh by the way I past that big test by three points! Yay me! \(^_^)/

Diet or Health?

Do we diet to be healthy or to lose the pounds and look good? People can be vain and just want to exercise and diet to look good rather than consider their health. This could lead to many dangers though if one is not careful. I think diets are more successful if you think of them as lifestyle changes and to better your body and your health. Treat your body with love, respect, and like a temple. You can start by choosing the way you think every morning. If you change one thought a day and get more positive results by thinking positive that could lead a healthier mental state. I know easier said than done and those of you who suffer from bi polar, manic depressive disorder, or other disorders should probably talk to your doctor for a better course of action. I’m not a doctor so I can only make suggestions that could possibly work for some people. If I find the key to get better then surely it can work for others if I find it.

Another update!

I ran out of subject lines…

Anyway, now that the weather is getting cooler it means that I can go outside to train. I also decided to give taking that one medicine twice a day another shot. This time though I won’t be eating a lot of junk because I think that led to me living in the bathroom. Well this medicine does make you GO, but amplifying that while eating junk food is NOT a good idea. I need to lower my blood sugar and I really want to do better and I keep forgetting that I really, really, really, really want to fit into a nice dress for my brother’s wedding. I am also trying to lose 12-14 pounds before the 18th of this month and if not  at least inches so I can fit into my jeans to do a cosplay for a thing that weekend. So far since Sunday I lost three pounds of what I was, but I know that’s mostly water weight because I recently was having female issues.

It’s back to the gym for me today and I need to really stop drinking diet soda. I know the bad things it can do, but I did some more updated research today and I was horrified. Aspartame can poison you so much and seriously no human should drink soda. ever.

Once in a blue moon maybe, but not everyday or week. Regular soda has it’s bad side too, but diet soda is worse. I need to free myself from my addiction to Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry.

In another development I seem to not like ice cream any more. It’s not the texture, but the flavor (even if it’s super chocolatey) just doesn’t do it for me anymore. I’ve been trying for a couple of months taste testing. I know what your thinking… “this is a good thing! You’re diabetic you idiot you shouldn’t be eating that stuff anyway!” Well you’re right, but once in awhile I want to indulge. At first I thought it was allergies or I was getting a cold. Because you can’t taste crap when you start to get a cold, but that wasn’t it. Then my next conclusion was either:

A. My taste buds are changing

B. The increase in that one medication is changing things.

C. I burnt my taste buds one too many times on hot foods because I was super hungry and couldn’t wait.

D. All of the above

There can be a number of things why.

Tonight’s dinner will be a healthy one of baked salmon with lemon pepper seasoning and some steamed veggies. So it’s one step in the right direction.

It’s almost Halloween time…

Tomorrow is Halloween and I have the pleasure of doling out sugary treats among the masses to little humans dressed up as imaginary and fictitious characters. Hopefully I myself do not slip into a sugary coma myself because a diabetic coma would not be good. After Halloween I want to lose 11 pounds by November 18th and I think I can do that. I’m all gung ho about this because I need to fit into my old pair of jeans for a cosplay for a convention that weekend.

Anyway, the bigger plan for Halloween night is to also watch scary thrillers and Halloween themed movies while gorging on air popped popcorn drizzled in melted butter. I learned my lesson last year not to be pre-occupied by gaming because it was a hassle to keep getting up and down from my game cave to the front door. This wasn’t a physical challenge as it was more a hearing challenge. I couldn’t hear the door bell from my game cave. I want to dress up as something when I answer the door, but I figure I don’t want to because I am lazy. If I was going to a Halloween party then that is a different story.

I hope everyone’s Halloween night is fun and exciting. Make sure to make smart choices and be safe.

Gaming Back log and overwhelmed

As newer games come out that I am interested in and/or eager to play my back log becomes bigger and bigger. Some games I quit because I either got frustrated, bored, or sensory overload by the other shiny games. When you think you’ve hit your limit another new shiny game comes out. I have also a collecting habit. If I have the first part or two parts and another sequel or prequel comes out then I buy it even if I haven’t finished any of the other games. This is also true with my books. Because it’s a set and they are a family and must be together. lolz XD

Anyway, I think I am going to start slowing down and also put my foot down and only buy games from series that I enjoy and know from now on. Also, I will not buy the next game in a string of games if I haven’t finished the first one or first few. I need to pick a game and stick with it? I also want to cut my gaming time down to have time to do other hobbies in my free time and possibly get other stuff done.

I started back at the gym last week so yay for me! ^^;

Also, the changed meds the doctor prescribed kinda made me sick so I went back to taking that one pill once a day after I eat.

I want to drop fifteen pounds before the ren fair that is coming up. Wish me luck!