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Once a habit…

I think if I break my fast food and diet soda addiction that will be it. I try to do things in moderation and it either works for awhile, doesn’t work at all, or becomes too much. It feels like breaking up with a significant other. You know they’re toxic for you, but you keep going back anyway thinking it’ll be different the next time. Your anxiety, brain, and cravings lie to you. Don’t listen to them and don’t give in. I’m sure once I start eating healthier foods and get into a good exercise routine as a better healthier habit I can kick those bad habits to the curb. I’ll start next week as I gather up my sure fire plan and when I am able to go back to the gym again.

Well…here’s to my health?

Just get moving…

I yelled at myself today and so I started dancing to “Just Dance 2017” on my Nintendo Switch. I really wasn’t feeling it today and my arms were really hurting after four songs. I need to go back to the gym and workout for a week and try again on Saturday. The good news is I lost two pounds in a week. I don’t know how I’ve been eating like I wasn’t on a diet this past week while on vacation. And then I totally forgot about my homework the entire week because I was so focused on studying for the vocab quiz on Wednesday…

I’m so grounding myself. I know I am an adult, but that means I can punish myself and so I will be studying most of next weekend away.

GYM TIME

I got to the gym finally yesterday and it turned my legs into jello. ^^;

Then I tried signing up for some martial arts training and realized my physical health limitations and got really depressed by the end of the day. Maybe I should just train at the gym and when I get closer to my goal and maybe get one thing fixed through surgery I can try again? I know I am not a spring chicken, but when I was younger and did martial arts my nightmares would go away and I would actually sleep well. That was among other improvements I was seeing back then. The wedding is still in September and my brother decided to have it on a Sunday. I guess the venue is cheaper that way because who books a wedding on a Sunday?

Saturday’s Run…

I ran a bit too hard trying to keep up with my running partner two days ago and my legs are still somewhat sore. I want to do Just Dance 2017, but I think I will wait for tomorrow. I’m starting to get a handle on organizing things and time management. I just finished my homework for my college class. Now I have to study all the Japanese adjectives before Wednesday because we are going to be quizzed on them. Tonight’s dinner is veggie hot dogs. It’s a new brand so I don’t know how they will turn out. Hopefully it will turn out wonderful and I can do away with regular hot dogs.

Because of the run on Saturday I think I also hurt my left foot on the left side of it. When runners run I think they call it a corn or something…or a bunyan? Or whatever runners get. I’ll have a doctor look at it the next time I go in. I need to spend more time in the gym. I am exercising, but I am starting to find things to get my cardio in with out the gym. Either that or things have got me really lazy to actually move to go to the gym. I will figure this out.

Stress and Health…

So I finally made two connections to two things and figured out what was going on after trying to figure out what the cause was for my dizziness. What am I talking about?

Periodically and sporadically, I would get short three minute dizzy spells and on a rarer occasion they last five minutes. I decided to get my blood pressure checked not too long after a dizzy spell yesterday and it came out to 151/87 and they said it was a little high. I then checked it this morning and it was still slightly high…I remember I think it was 131/6…something?

I think my high blood pressure is anxiety/stress induced. I’ve been stressing out a lot these past….well since January.

So now I am in “Operation: Chill out and Calm the Frak down” mode and I also am dieting really hard to get my weight down. Because high blood pressure will go away when you lose weight and on the plus side my diabetes will get better. This past week I also had not had time to exercise so that part is my fault. There should be no excuses. It was and is very scary of this new discovery. I really, really, really do NOT want another medication put on me. I’m also thinking about my father and I’m starting to be like him (health wise) and it makes me more angry than scared.

I know my mom keeps telling me not to worry so much and not to worry about everything. It’s a lot like how you can’t tell a cancer patient to stop having cancer. It doesn’t work that way. Anxiety has to be worked through. You can’t just turn it off and on by sheer will or like a light switch.

I know I have many things to work on and maybe I’ll take it really seriously this time and not pull what my dad pulled and be good for three weeks so not to be put on insulin because he’s afraid of needles and then go back to the way you were and then die anyway.

I am not my father.

I’m still alive.

….I have a lot on my mind.

Another update!

I ran out of subject lines…

Anyway, now that the weather is getting cooler it means that I can go outside to train. I also decided to give taking that one medicine twice a day another shot. This time though I won’t be eating a lot of junk because I think that led to me living in the bathroom. Well this medicine does make you GO, but amplifying that while eating junk food is NOT a good idea. I need to lower my blood sugar and I really want to do better and I keep forgetting that I really, really, really, really want to fit into a nice dress for my brother’s wedding. I am also trying to lose 12-14 pounds before the 18th of this month and if not  at least inches so I can fit into my jeans to do a cosplay for a thing that weekend. So far since Sunday I lost three pounds of what I was, but I know that’s mostly water weight because I recently was having female issues.

It’s back to the gym for me today and I need to really stop drinking diet soda. I know the bad things it can do, but I did some more updated research today and I was horrified. Aspartame can poison you so much and seriously no human should drink soda. ever.

Once in a blue moon maybe, but not everyday or week. Regular soda has it’s bad side too, but diet soda is worse. I need to free myself from my addiction to Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry.

In another development I seem to not like ice cream any more. It’s not the texture, but the flavor (even if it’s super chocolatey) just doesn’t do it for me anymore. I’ve been trying for a couple of months taste testing. I know what your thinking… “this is a good thing! You’re diabetic you idiot you shouldn’t be eating that stuff anyway!” Well you’re right, but once in awhile I want to indulge. At first I thought it was allergies or I was getting a cold. Because you can’t taste crap when you start to get a cold, but that wasn’t it. Then my next conclusion was either:

A. My taste buds are changing

B. The increase in that one medication is changing things.

C. I burnt my taste buds one too many times on hot foods because I was super hungry and couldn’t wait.

D. All of the above

There can be a number of things why.

Tonight’s dinner will be a healthy one of baked salmon with lemon pepper seasoning and some steamed veggies. So it’s one step in the right direction.

Gaming Back log and overwhelmed

As newer games come out that I am interested in and/or eager to play my back log becomes bigger and bigger. Some games I quit because I either got frustrated, bored, or sensory overload by the other shiny games. When you think you’ve hit your limit another new shiny game comes out. I have also a collecting habit. If I have the first part or two parts and another sequel or prequel comes out then I buy it even if I haven’t finished any of the other games. This is also true with my books. Because it’s a set and they are a family and must be together. lolz XD

Anyway, I think I am going to start slowing down and also put my foot down and only buy games from series that I enjoy and know from now on. Also, I will not buy the next game in a string of games if I haven’t finished the first one or first few. I need to pick a game and stick with it? I also want to cut my gaming time down to have time to do other hobbies in my free time and possibly get other stuff done.

I started back at the gym last week so yay for me! ^^;

Also, the changed meds the doctor prescribed kinda made me sick so I went back to taking that one pill once a day after I eat.

I want to drop fifteen pounds before the ren fair that is coming up. Wish me luck!

 

New FitBit…sort of.

A friend from work gave me her old FitBit Charge HR, while mine is just a Charge and also starting to fall apart. The only new thing the Charge HR does is track heart beat. That’s the only difference between the two. I can fully get back into the swing of things with this new FitBit. I all ready set it up to the app on my phone and I am good to go. The only thing is that it fits snugly around my wrist. I’m assuming if I lose more weight it will start to fit better yes?

I am feeling under the weather this week and also the weather has been crummy this past week. There has been random thunderstorms and no one knows how to drive in a desert that never sees rain that they do not know what do do when it happens or how to identify it. I will be starting up back at the gym on either Monday or Tuesday with a co-worker because she decided to change her workout time to the afternoon in stead of in the mornings before work. Hopefully I can acclimate to my routine again and hopefully get used to doing weights.

I cheated.

Last night I was feeling frustrated and depressed about food (what I could not have and I possibly was going through withdrawal) and was about to cook a frozen pizza I had in the freezer. I only stock up or eat frozen pizza when money is tight and I can not order it. Yeah, so I have emergency pizza… ^^;

I also was taking a rest day from the gym…which does not help me in anyway of what I did.

Anyway, my mom said she wanted pizza (which is not often) and we wind up ordering out for the first time in a long while. She wound up with an Italian sub sandwich and some brownies for dessert. I wound up with a large sausage cheese pizza. I did not eat the whole thing. I could not eat the whole thing even if I wanted to. I got three slices in and started feeling full. When I was younger I could devour whole large pizzas by myself. As I got older that slowly started to change. My maximum pizza slice eating is usually nowadays five slices on a large, and six on a medium, and let us not talk about small sized pizzas.

I ate three slices last night and maybe around ten ounces of brownie. I really did not measure it. It was as big as my fist. I remember that much. I think my stomach shrunk some. The rest of the pizza is going to my work place for others to devour and finish. So, yes, it’s a minor set back, but are we not all entitled to one cheat meal at some point. One meal is not going to ruin everything. Just like one healthy meal is not going to fix everything.

So I am back on the horse today. So to speak… ^^

Is weight loss surgery the best thing?

I have talked to many people and friends that have gotten weight loss surgery done. Most of my friends have gotten the sleeve done and I know my aunt an uncle years ago back in the late 80’s or early 90’s (I can not remember) got their stomachs stapled through surgery, lost the weight (mostly) and then gained it back. If I am going to decide to do this I do not want to shell out a 4,000 dollar co-pay from my insurance just for it not to work.

Now what I am about to write about does not apply to people who truly do need the surgery and cannot do it on their own. For example if people have a thyroid problem then yes it is a lot harder to lose weight and in some cases with those problems makes them gain weight. I am sure there are other physical challenges and reasons why, for some people, surgery maybe their only option.

For the rest of us, and yes I do mean us with me included need to get up off our butts and stop being lazy. Surgery is not a crutch of a fix, a quick fix, nor a fix all to patch up laziness which could simply be fixed by changing your diet. I pushed myself to go to the gym twice this week after work. Monday and yesterday I went and did my cardio on Monday and walked on the treadmill on Tuesday. But, I have been working hard for the past two weeks or so. I have lost ten pounds. My family and friends keep telling me that surgery will be the best thing for me, will be a good idea, and the famous “you SHOULD do it” reason! It’s now becoming like a cult/bandwagon thing and I do not know what scares me more is that so many people need/do it or that it looks like a fad/cult culture thing. Not only that, but there is a high rate of people gaining their weight back and/or have many complications. Every body’s body is different, but why put yourself through that and waste time, money, and energy? Plus when you lose weight that fast you’re going to have a lot of hanging loose skin. If you go to the gym and tone up with weights you will still have sagging skin, but not as bad. Then you will have to pay for surgery to get that removed and tucked in. If you tell your insurance it’s not for cosmetic reasons and trust me if you got weight loss surgery at 400 lbs. + there are tons of reasons why it is bad to leave it. Your skin could chaff, there could be bacteria getting in there, and all sorts of things. So that would be another high co-pay of whatever your insurance tells you once you’ve convinced them it is not cosmetic, but actual life saving loose skin removal. I just want to do a one time co-pay for loose skin removal not for both weight loss surgery and that.

I hate doctors and the thought of my stomach being cut into and drastically doing a force change in my life does not sound appealing. My doctor when I spoke with him said I would be perfect candidate. I am all for changing my diet and making smarter choices, but when I was speaking with one of my friends who had gotten the surgery and she lost almost 100 pounds with her surgery (she did the sleeve too) and told me she now cannot eat very much, but she cannot drink any liquids a half an hour before she eats and she has to wait a half an hour after she eats. That is not normal to me. Doctors and health professionals tell you to drink a glass of water before meals so that you’ll fill up more and become full faster. There are other things that do not agree with me that you have to do after surgery. I know I can do this on my own if I stop being lazy and take control of my life. No more stop and go diet and exercise routines because this should be a change of life for me. This should be my new lifestyle and change is apart of life.