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I cheated.

Last night I was feeling frustrated and depressed about food (what I could not have and I possibly was going through withdrawal) and was about to cook a frozen pizza I had in the freezer. I only stock up or eat frozen pizza when money is tight and I can not order it. Yeah, so I have emergency pizza… ^^;

I also was taking a rest day from the gym…which does not help me in anyway of what I did.

Anyway, my mom said she wanted pizza (which is not often) and we wind up ordering out for the first time in a long while. She wound up with an Italian sub sandwich and some brownies for dessert. I wound up with a large sausage cheese pizza. I did not eat the whole thing. I could not eat the whole thing even if I wanted to. I got three slices in and started feeling full. When I was younger I could devour whole large pizzas by myself. As I got older that slowly started to change. My maximum pizza slice eating is usually nowadays five slices on a large, and six on a medium, and let us not talk about small sized pizzas.

I ate three slices last night and maybe around ten ounces of brownie. I really did not measure it. It was as big as my fist. I remember that much. I think my stomach shrunk some. The rest of the pizza is going to my work place for others to devour and finish. So, yes, it’s a minor set back, but are we not all entitled to one cheat meal at some point. One meal is not going to ruin everything. Just like one healthy meal is not going to fix everything.

So I am back on the horse today. So to speak… ^^

Buffets should be avoided

Bad news…I went to a buffet for dinner last night. The good news is that I did not have three or more plates full of food. I realized I can not eat like I could at a buffet like before. It was one plateful of food and I felt really full. I also had some diet coke because my medicine was making me sick to my stomach. But, once I was eating and sipping the diet coke it got better.

And today I feel like my body is in safe mode. I woke up this morning with cold sweats. I have done this before on occasion. I think the mountain hike yesterday afternoon was a bit much and not because of the walk, but because of the slight altitude change. That could have done something maybe?  I roughly enjoyed the hike more so because it was a paved trail, but going back was uphill and I wanted to get to the car faster so I over exerted myself by walking faster. I was not alone because I had a couple of friends with me so no worries. It was a mile mountain trail hike with stuff to read along the way telling you about the trail. It was amazingly quiet up there until other hikers were walking up the walkway.

All in all it was a nice day trip in the late afternoon. I start training at the gym again today after work. Wish me luck! 🙂

 

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

Happy of happiest drinking days! lolz

Although, I am not a drinker, but I still revel in the corn beef, potatoes, and cabbage. I am going over to my brother’s place because he’s cooking. I have not had these foods in a long time. In my family on my mother’s side we are a little Irish along with German, and mostly Italian. On my dad’s side is German, Irish, Austrian, and mostly English. So if you are a math wiz you can figure out how much Irish I am. ^_^;

I will start my new diet on Saturday if I can form a good plan by tomorrow. But, it might not happen until Monday because currently I am under the weather (nothing catching). It involves craving chocolate. These feelings too shall pass.

I hope everyone has a blessed day today and be safe and do not do anything too stupid. 🙂

The Doctor Visit

I went to see my doctor yesterday and I was more upset yesterday than today. This is because I learned that all my training I did for eight weeks felt like it was for nothing. My doctor was great and all, but I was disappointed at my body because apparently my AC1’s did not budge. They did not budge one bit to my rising feelings of chagrin. My AC1’s are 8.2 and I was not expecting to get back to the seven’s or anything, but at least for it to move one point. The doctor discussed with me about eating right going along with the exercise. I have to change my diet of what I eat. Exercise is only 10% of a healthy life and when trying to lose weight. While, eating is the other 90% is what my doctor was telling me about.

So, we talked about a lot of things and a lot of issues and my mood swings. I’m not going to divulge into the whole enchilada, but when your sugar does a roller coaster of highs and lows so does your moods. There is something else I got diagnosed with (nothing life threatening and I am not dying) and it contributes to that and a few other things. I guess I got a double whammy here and I am still processing it and thinking of a strategy for battle so to speak. I am not a spring chicken anymore, but I am not elderly or old and so I guess I can not do a lot of physical activity and eat whatever. Teens can do this and not change their diet and lose weight and sometimes young adults can do this. I have to re-chart my whole exercise routine and come up with a newer plan.

C25K: Week 7 – Day 3

Yesterday’s training was to run for 28 minutes… I wound up actually fast walking it because my feet and legs were hurting. Hey, in hindsight I have been doing really great up until the edge of week eight of training. This is why I am going to do the training twice over. I also want to take it easy because on Saturday there is a 5k race that I am running with a friend. Okay, in reality I will probably walk it, but jog some parts of it. I know week eight is brutal because it is the last week.

I have to lose weight. I have to lose weight. I have to lose weight.

I want to incorporate more salads into my diet and veggies and grilled fish for the protein part.

I want to fit into that dress that I saw in the shop and I have a year and half to do it.

Why is this so hard? It is not hard it should be easy, but yet this is proving to be difficult.

C25K: Week 7 – Day 1 and Dance Class

Yes, this was yesterday instead of Tuesday because now I am a day off because of that rainy Saturday. This training session was slightly better, but that is only because I think I paced myself in the beginning instead going for it at high octane speed. I am feeling under the weather for today for personal reasons…you know…female issues. I want to still go to my dance class tonight, but at the same time I just do not want to go. When I am in this mode I just want to drink a lot of water, eat chocolate, and sleep until the cows come home. For some reason though the craving of chocolate goes away the more protein I pack in. This may not work for everyone, but when you are training and on a diet then it is imperative that you do not ruin it with chocolate cravings. Another thing that works for the sweet tooth is fruit, but being diabetic I have to be careful with that so I try to balance fruit and protein. I wonder what other things could work? Because if I eat too much chicken or fish I think I’ll be sick. The only good thing about this time is most times I am not hungry and I actually get nauseous and sometimes dizziness accompanies it, but that is with the worse case scenarios that may occur. I usually give in to all the cravings and eat whatever. I do not want to do that though if I am trying to live healthier. I will figure this out eventually.

C25K: Week 6 – Day 3…CANCELLED

I did not run this past Saturday due to torrential rain in the desert. I know this sounds like an oxymoron, but it really happened and also I was not feeling well that day. I said I would make it up somehow to my running partner, but I never got the chance to make it up in fear it would screw up week seven and make me unable to bear the first day of that week. The first day in a new week of the training app is always the worst and I did not want to be too tired for it.

I am stepping up on my food intake and what kinds of foods I am letting my body ingest. I decided for portion control to invest in getting small cake plates. The trick is I can eat my meals as long as they fit on the plate and that does not mean make a small mountain either… -_-;

This week I am going to try harder and it is okay once in awhile to take a break from your training routine…just do not make a vacation out of it. ^_^;;

Rest is important for the body too and make sure to drink plenty of water, eat lots and lots of veggies (I can not stress this enough), eat some fruits, and get plenty of sleep. Oh and I need to cut out the caffeine, but I needed it today so I had mom put on a pot of coffee and I made myself a nice 15 oz. of glorious happy battery life giving juice. I am going to be a bit hyper today, but also my anxiety will run higher today and I hope I can manage it as well as the extra energy. Have a happy wonderful Tuesday! ^_^

I am absolutely convinced that diet soda is the devil.

I had some diet soda on Saturday night because I had not had any for awhile. I also did this as an experiment. Then something happened the next morning when I got on the scale. I gained two pounds apparently. Yes, you can chock it up to (especially for women) the body’s weight fluctuates, and one should not weigh themselves frequently. Whenever I go on these health journeys I always find myself frustrated, bewildered, and I want instant gratification. I know logically that the weight gain did not happen over night because it was a combination of many years of bad food choices and lack of motivation to be active. It certainly is not going to come off in a fort night just because I cranked up my activity level and started making better food choices.

As far as diet soda goes, in my opinion, is worse than regular soda and yet I can not drink that either because I am diabetic. I might as well drink battery acid because soda is not good for you period. When I drink diet soda I get bad cramps in my legs and headaches, my stomach is bloated, and I start craving sugary and heavily starched foods. I notice once I stop drinking this crap (and it takes a good while) that I stop craving a lot of the bad things that are not good for my body. I mean it doesn’t eliminate all, but at least I’m not jumping out of my seat and a voice telling me I need these bad foods. It is an addiction that leads to more bad addictions…in a dietary way.

Also, the caffeine is not good for my anxiety. Yes, caffeine makes anxiety ten times worse or a hundred times worse depending on how much of the stuff you ingest. I could jump and leap to paranoid conclusions that make no sense in a single bound. In worse case scenarios upon drinking too much caffeinated diet soda I have more panic attack episodes even when I am not anxiously thinking about something. The anxiety is manageable and almost non existent when I keep up with my exercise routine and not ingesting any caffeine, but more importantly when I am not drinking any diet soda. I am convinced that other chemicals especially the fake sugars are doing something to my brain as well. I also know for a fact that my anxiety is a lot better when after a few months of adequate exercise, a good diet, and meditation (with a bit of yoga) I become a healthier happier person mentally and physically.

The only reason I wound up having some diet soda this weekend was before the diet I thought I drank and got rid of them all in my fridge, but only to discover I had one more box of 12 cans in the kitchen closet while cleaning. With any addiction it’s important to get rid of any temptation, and I should have done a more thorough inspection of my kitchen…

No worries, no one is perfect, and when we fall we get back up on the horse and try again. As long as we keep trying (even if there are setbacks) and do not give up it is still doing more than doing nothing. So, yes diet soda is the devil and that is my story and I am sticking to it.