I went to the gym on Friday and then skipped Saturday and then went yesterday, Sunday morning and I was going to go today on Memorial Day. There are a couple of reasons holding me back from going.
- Memorial Day Drivers (I don’t want to get into an accident)
- Women’s issues happened to me yesterday evening, but thankfully I am not in a lot of pain. (knock on wood and hope for the best)
- I neglected my laundry with being busy and wanting to rest, but it seems like I keep getting roped into staying busy. This has it’s good and bad points.
- I’m not just making excuses to make excuses.
If I were to go to the gym in this state I would need to wear black pants just in case and well, I ran out and therefore that is why I have to stay home and do laundry. But, I am on a mission. It’s 124 days until my brother’s wedding and I am determined to look good in a dress and look good in the videos and photos. I don’t want to look like a cute potato in a dress. Did I mention I hate wearing dresses? It’s the tomboy in me.
I am also on a new medication that hopefully will help me on this journey and focus this summer to finish the goals I set for myself. I want to lose at least a healthy range of 30 pounds this summer. But, since I am so heavy and with this new medication I do not mind losing 40-50 pounds and then stopping for my body to adjust as long as a lot of inches come off with it. I want to get under the 300 pound mark and so far I have lost like 2-3 pounds. I could weight myself more to see if that I lost more, but lady problems with the bloating prevents me from seeing any progress. I also have a bad habit of not drinking enough water. I used to drink a lot of water when I was younger and I don’t know how I got into the habit of not drinking enough water. I am just not thirsty enough I guess? It’s not the taste. I have a great water system in the home and I have had so many friends suggest water flavorings that are either natural fruits to artificial diabetic friendly flavorings. To be honest though, to flavor my water with any of these options would make me want to drink water less. To me water should be just that…water. Any weird flavorings and subconsciously my brain would start thinking I am trying to poison it.
Also, I wanted to mention that I joined a weight loss program called Real Appeal. I found out about it from work and other co-workers have joined. Now I am not a person to jump on band wagons or jump off the bridge with everyone else like a freaking sheep. But, I decided to try anything once especially when you hear good things. There’s a lot of things I don’t like about it and there are a few things that I do like about it. I got a free kit in the mail with a digital scale, exercise equipment thing (I have no idea what they call it), work books, a plate with color coded portions of how you should eat, exercise dvd’s, and stuff. And then there is the live video classes you can do from your computer or smart phone. The class is thirty minutes and you set up what time you want to join. I’ll keep this blog updated with all that stuff.
Wish me luck!
P.S. That one doctor on my last doctor’s visit on May 3rd pissed me off so I am going to prove I don’t need that medication with the two really bad side effects. I’m going to prove her wrong. I can do this without it.
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I’m going to see the doctor this afternoon. I had all my blood tests done because it’s that time again to check it. We’ll see what my AC1’s are and where I’m at and probably discuss a new diet and all that jazz. I’m hoping to get help getting my ears cleaned out because it’s getting hard to hear on occasion. Wish me luck!
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So I finally made two connections to two things and figured out what was going on after trying to figure out what the cause was for my dizziness. What am I talking about?
Periodically and sporadically, I would get short three minute dizzy spells and on a rarer occasion they last five minutes. I decided to get my blood pressure checked not too long after a dizzy spell yesterday and it came out to 151/87 and they said it was a little high. I then checked it this morning and it was still slightly high…I remember I think it was 131/6…something?
I think my high blood pressure is anxiety/stress induced. I’ve been stressing out a lot these past….well since January.
So now I am in “Operation: Chill out and Calm the Frak down” mode and I also am dieting really hard to get my weight down. Because high blood pressure will go away when you lose weight and on the plus side my diabetes will get better. This past week I also had not had time to exercise so that part is my fault. There should be no excuses. It was and is very scary of this new discovery. I really, really, really do NOT want another medication put on me. I’m also thinking about my father and I’m starting to be like him (health wise) and it makes me more angry than scared.
I know my mom keeps telling me not to worry so much and not to worry about everything. It’s a lot like how you can’t tell a cancer patient to stop having cancer. It doesn’t work that way. Anxiety has to be worked through. You can’t just turn it off and on by sheer will or like a light switch.
I know I have many things to work on and maybe I’ll take it really seriously this time and not pull what my dad pulled and be good for three weeks so not to be put on insulin because he’s afraid of needles and then go back to the way you were and then die anyway.
I am not my father.
I’m still alive.
….I have a lot on my mind.
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I have talked to many people and friends that have gotten weight loss surgery done. Most of my friends have gotten the sleeve done and I know my aunt an uncle years ago back in the late 80’s or early 90’s (I can not remember) got their stomachs stapled through surgery, lost the weight (mostly) and then gained it back. If I am going to decide to do this I do not want to shell out a 4,000 dollar co-pay from my insurance just for it not to work.
Now what I am about to write about does not apply to people who truly do need the surgery and cannot do it on their own. For example if people have a thyroid problem then yes it is a lot harder to lose weight and in some cases with those problems makes them gain weight. I am sure there are other physical challenges and reasons why, for some people, surgery maybe their only option.
For the rest of us, and yes I do mean us with me included need to get up off our butts and stop being lazy. Surgery is not a crutch of a fix, a quick fix, nor a fix all to patch up laziness which could simply be fixed by changing your diet. I pushed myself to go to the gym twice this week after work. Monday and yesterday I went and did my cardio on Monday and walked on the treadmill on Tuesday. But, I have been working hard for the past two weeks or so. I have lost ten pounds. My family and friends keep telling me that surgery will be the best thing for me, will be a good idea, and the famous “you SHOULD do it” reason! It’s now becoming like a cult/bandwagon thing and I do not know what scares me more is that so many people need/do it or that it looks like a fad/cult culture thing. Not only that, but there is a high rate of people gaining their weight back and/or have many complications. Every body’s body is different, but why put yourself through that and waste time, money, and energy? Plus when you lose weight that fast you’re going to have a lot of hanging loose skin. If you go to the gym and tone up with weights you will still have sagging skin, but not as bad. Then you will have to pay for surgery to get that removed and tucked in. If you tell your insurance it’s not for cosmetic reasons and trust me if you got weight loss surgery at 400 lbs. + there are tons of reasons why it is bad to leave it. Your skin could chaff, there could be bacteria getting in there, and all sorts of things. So that would be another high co-pay of whatever your insurance tells you once you’ve convinced them it is not cosmetic, but actual life saving loose skin removal. I just want to do a one time co-pay for loose skin removal not for both weight loss surgery and that.
I hate doctors and the thought of my stomach being cut into and drastically doing a force change in my life does not sound appealing. My doctor when I spoke with him said I would be perfect candidate. I am all for changing my diet and making smarter choices, but when I was speaking with one of my friends who had gotten the surgery and she lost almost 100 pounds with her surgery (she did the sleeve too) and told me she now cannot eat very much, but she cannot drink any liquids a half an hour before she eats and she has to wait a half an hour after she eats. That is not normal to me. Doctors and health professionals tell you to drink a glass of water before meals so that you’ll fill up more and become full faster. There are other things that do not agree with me that you have to do after surgery. I know I can do this on my own if I stop being lazy and take control of my life. No more stop and go diet and exercise routines because this should be a change of life for me. This should be my new lifestyle and change is apart of life.
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