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Happy Easter!

Well, while being on break I was able to go to the gym twice. Then tomorrow morning I am going to do my run with my running partner. I got on the scale this morning and it was not pretty. Being on vacation sucks sometimes and you do not realize the damage you do until it is too late. I do not know if I mentioned this in a post before, but I did receive bad news last Saturday on the 8th. Before my test I learned a friend passed away and he had been battling brain cancer for a long time. I gathered my strength and took my test and the irony is that I did better in math than I did in reading. This is ironic because I am better in the language arts than I am in mathematics. I was just seven points away from passing my math. SEVEN!

If studying for a half an hour a week for two months gave me a fourteen point jump from my first scoring in November then I shall have to study harder. I am determined and I can do this to achieve my goals. This also applies to my weight loss journey. I hate calling it “my weight loss journey”. It sounds asinine and I have been depressed about it. I talked to my mother about getting weight loss surgery. I also talked to a friend who had got it done and she lost 87 pounds in six months. My mother thinks I can still do it on my own and I do not need the surgery. I have been trying to do it on my own ever since the sixth grade. I am so frustrated and I hate these diets or to be on a diet. You do not truly want something until you are told you can not have it. There are a lot of mixed feelings about getting weight loss surgery. I also do not want to have surgery only to just gain the weight back.

Sunday, I am cooking Easter dinner and having one of my uncles over for dinner along with mom and myself. Hopefully I will not over cook the turkey. I hope everyone else has a pleasant Easter and good blessings to all.

Update!

Since I do not know html or anything of that sort I think I should do quick blog posts about updates to the tabs on my site.

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Pancakes at Midnight

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Testing

I have been studying for this big test that I am going to take on Saturday. It determines whether I can get into this university to finish my last two years of schooling to get to whatever career I choose. The math section is killing me and I am not good at math. Why must my road blocks be of math?! e.e;;

In other news I have not been to the gym in a bit because of my body plotting against me (female issues). Then I have to be studying for this test and the math portion takes up so much energy. I do plan on going to dance class Friday later afternoon and possibly my run early that morning to get my brain going. I noticed as I checked the scale that I gained, but I also have been depressed and I do not know what to do about it. If your answer is go see a therapist/psychologist…it is not going to work. I’ve seen a therapist and it did some good for little things, but not the bigger things and I am afraid to go see a psychiatrist/psychologist. I am afraid because they can prescribe pills that I am not willing to take because I hate medication. I have reasons for that, but that should be on another blog post entirely. People (and me as well) are lucky that I am taking my diabetic medication. During my spring vacation I will be focusing on my health and other things like spring cleaning and organization and personal stuff.

So wish me luck for my test and light a candle/pray for my health that I get back on track. ^_^;;

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I want to live.

Live

Living

Life

Life giving

Alive

A living

…more like I am “living impaired” at the moment.

I have been reading Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury and it has been giving me thoughts and ideas on a social philosophy of society. This is the first time I am reading this book and it feels familiar. It probably feels familiar because I have read Ray Bradbury’s other works like “Sound of Thunder”. I am not saying that all his written works are all the same, but each writer has a style or writes in a unique way. This book is very different and yet very familiar in a way that it too makes you think. What if in the not too distant future books were being burned and a whole society being dumbed down to simplistic thoughts because they did not have to think at all?

Oh by the way…I had caffeine this morning.

This book was written around in the 1950’s and some things in that book are true in today’s society. For example, Mildred’s “TV parlor” and how she wants a fourth wall and she loves watching her television family which sounds, and basically is, reality television. There is no plot to the show and it is just a bunch of people talking to each other. Then there is society where everything is blaring at them all the time and they are stuck watching these television programs and music and tune out reality…they tune out people and disconnect. I feel today’s society is heading that way with all the technology that it is a wonder anyone talks to a real person. I want to live and enjoy life and not be tied down to technology, and connect with real people, and not shut the world out.

I have only gotten to page 80 so far and if you have taken a look at my “Book Shelf Life” tab on my website you will see I am reading a whole bunch of other books because I have book ADHD apparently. I will add this one to the list and if you have read the book before and would like to discuss or have thoughts/discussions on what I have read so far please comment below. 🙂

 

A little lost…

I find myself struggling. I feel my training is what I absolutely need to do and yet I feel worn out, tired, sluggish, and deprived. I say deprived because I know I need to stop eating the bad foods and make better choices. I also feel deprived when I do not train and do the thing that I need to do. Sometimes you have to just make yourself get up and go, or if at all possible do something different. I want to try DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) again and see if I can substitute it for gym time. If I can get at least twenty to thirty minutes of DDR time in today that would be good. At least it’s something different and it is colorful and fun and I really love it. But, on the other hand I miss Ellie at the gym and I call the machine that because it is short for Elliptical. It is my favorite gym machine and I do not know what I would do without it. I need to get out of this funk and I know nothing is instantaneous. I have to keep working at it or I might be forced to use other methods like other medications that was suggested by my doctor. I hate pills, I hate medicine, and if I could get off all my current medication I would be a happy camper.

Music is good therapy for me and so is an hour or two of Minecraft. In Minecraft you have lulling calming music while doing monotonous tasks that either calm you or put you to sleep. It only puts me to sleep if I am tired and I had not gotten sleep previously. There are other ways to cope as well such as writing things down in a diary/journal. If you type personal stuff on a blog it does not have as much meaning/feeling of pouring all the bad/sad/whatever stuff out as physically writing it. Art is the next best thing to express oneself with whatever a person might be going through whether you are good or not. Art can be anything from drawing, sculpting, writing a story/poetry, coloring, cooking (it is in the presentation), and whatever you can make with your own hands and creativity. You can actually combine Minecraft and art by making pixel art with the blocks. I am not very good at pixel art in Minecraft, but a lot of people are and I just sit there in creative mode and play with the blocks and call it “Virtual Legos”. Which, I was not too good at the real thing as a kid. I was the kid that made lopsided houses and weird stuff.

Here’s hope to more positive outlook and thoughts! 🙂

C25K-R2: Week 1 – Day 3

I ran this Saturday despite me having a blister underneath my right pinky toe. When I worked out on last Wednesday I tried to take it easy. It is getting better to say the least and on Saturday one of the “run” intervals I actually RAN for twenty seconds and it felt good. I am getting there I guess and then there was talk with my running partner to go to Cedar City, Utah next fall of 2018. Why is that? For a half marathon and then I questioned how long that was, but I should of known it would be 13.1 miles. I have the marathon miles memorized as 26.2 so if it is half because it is a half marathon…eh you get the picture. Now I am training for that half marathon. This gives me at least a year and half to train even if I end up walking half or all of it…to walk half a marathon would be an accomplishment for me.

Buffets should be avoided

Bad news…I went to a buffet for dinner last night. The good news is that I did not have three or more plates full of food. I realized I can not eat like I could at a buffet like before. It was one plateful of food and I felt really full. I also had some diet coke because my medicine was making me sick to my stomach. But, once I was eating and sipping the diet coke it got better.

And today I feel like my body is in safe mode. I woke up this morning with cold sweats. I have done this before on occasion. I think the mountain hike yesterday afternoon was a bit much and not because of the walk, but because of the slight altitude change. That could have done something maybe?  I roughly enjoyed the hike more so because it was a paved trail, but going back was uphill and I wanted to get to the car faster so I over exerted myself by walking faster. I was not alone because I had a couple of friends with me so no worries. It was a mile mountain trail hike with stuff to read along the way telling you about the trail. It was amazingly quiet up there until other hikers were walking up the walkway.

All in all it was a nice day trip in the late afternoon. I start training at the gym again today after work. Wish me luck! 🙂

 

Raw Fitness Diet

So my brother did the 21 day Raw Fitness Challenge where you pay a crap load of money and if you lose the weight you get it back. He wanted me to try it, but I tried to tell him I do not have the money. Then he says you will get it back and next to what I say is I do not have the money to fork over now. The problem is…or at least there are two problems here why I can not do this challenge. One, too expensive and two what if I do not drop the weight in the allotted time? Because as a woman your weight can fluctuate and mine does and I do not know…

I am not afraid of trying knew things and I can probably debunk my second reason, but I can not take apart the first one. My brother says the money is mostly for the workouts. Well, I have my own routines and stuff and I think if I tried the workouts in their gyms I would die. If I only had 50-80 pounds to lose then sure I would go for it.

I also really feel all these fancy and/or fad diets, diet products, shakes, and pills are created by people so they can get rich off of people’s pain and suffering.