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…A really important journal post thing update.

Holiday Happiness?

I’ve been trying to get excited for the holidays and forcing happiness is never good. Maybe I’m not excited about Thanksgiving this year. I might be a little excited for Christmas this year because I want to put up all the pretty lights and stuff. I have forgone putting up a Christmas tree for the last few years because of cats. I have two cats and they are very mischievous. I don’t want them to eat the tree or knock it down and hit something or someone. But, this year I have a plan that should stop them from going anywhere near the tree.

The holidays have always been difficult for me even if it didn’t show as much or at all when I was a kid so no one ever knew. I was always distracted by the lights and shiny things. I always also felt that I HAD to do things like give friends and family presents, smile and be happy just because it’s Christmas time, sing carols, and be apart of the holiday activities. I felt like I didn’t have a say I was just told to do these things without choosing to do them on my own. Even if it wasn’t my parents telling me to participate then I involuntary participated on my own, or smiled because I didn’t want to be ostracized from my classmates or peers. Christmas to me has always been a pain in the ass. I never understood the whole over commercialized holiday where capitalism is celebrated on a holy day meant for a fictional baby that was born in a manger.

No offense.

I just think differently and I do respect other people’s faith. Whatever you believe in keep doing that. Whatever gets you through the day and helps you out that’s great. It just isn’t for me.

The holidays should be meant for keeping families together and spending time and not about material things or anything else for that matter.

I’m really trying this year to be excited and happy about Christmas and I’m going to cross my fingers that my cats don’t knock down the tree when I put it up, or I will lose my last shred of holiday cheer and then no more trees. My plan will work though and I’m feeling positive about it. So good luck to everyone out there who have a cat or cats and are putting up trees this year. Be careful not to use tinsel because cats love to eat that stuff and they will get sick! …that and you’ll have to clean shiny poop out of the litter box.

Another update!

I ran out of subject lines…

Anyway, now that the weather is getting cooler it means that I can go outside to train. I also decided to give taking that one medicine twice a day another shot. This time though I won’t be eating a lot of junk because I think that led to me living in the bathroom. Well this medicine does make you GO, but amplifying that while eating junk food is NOT a good idea. I need to lower my blood sugar and I really want to do better and I keep forgetting that I really, really, really, really want to fit into a nice dress for my brother’s wedding. I am also trying to lose 12-14 pounds before the 18th of this month and if not  at least inches so I can fit into my jeans to do a cosplay for a thing that weekend. So far since Sunday I lost three pounds of what I was, but I know that’s mostly water weight because I recently was having female issues.

It’s back to the gym for me today and I need to really stop drinking diet soda. I know the bad things it can do, but I did some more updated research today and I was horrified. Aspartame can poison you so much and seriously no human should drink soda. ever.

Once in a blue moon maybe, but not everyday or week. Regular soda has it’s bad side too, but diet soda is worse. I need to free myself from my addiction to Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry.

In another development I seem to not like ice cream any more. It’s not the texture, but the flavor (even if it’s super chocolatey) just doesn’t do it for me anymore. I’ve been trying for a couple of months taste testing. I know what your thinking… “this is a good thing! You’re diabetic you idiot you shouldn’t be eating that stuff anyway!” Well you’re right, but once in awhile I want to indulge. At first I thought it was allergies or I was getting a cold. Because you can’t taste crap when you start to get a cold, but that wasn’t it. Then my next conclusion was either:

A. My taste buds are changing

B. The increase in that one medication is changing things.

C. I burnt my taste buds one too many times on hot foods because I was super hungry and couldn’t wait.

D. All of the above

There can be a number of things why.

Tonight’s dinner will be a healthy one of baked salmon with lemon pepper seasoning and some steamed veggies. So it’s one step in the right direction.

It’s almost Halloween time…

Tomorrow is Halloween and I have the pleasure of doling out sugary treats among the masses to little humans dressed up as imaginary and fictitious characters. Hopefully I myself do not slip into a sugary coma myself because a diabetic coma would not be good. After Halloween I want to lose 11 pounds by November 18th and I think I can do that. I’m all gung ho about this because I need to fit into my old pair of jeans for a cosplay for a convention that weekend.

Anyway, the bigger plan for Halloween night is to also watch scary thrillers and Halloween themed movies while gorging on air popped popcorn drizzled in melted butter. I learned my lesson last year not to be pre-occupied by gaming because it was a hassle to keep getting up and down from my game cave to the front door. This wasn’t a physical challenge as it was more a hearing challenge. I couldn’t hear the door bell from my game cave. I want to dress up as something when I answer the door, but I figure I don’t want to because I am lazy. If I was going to a Halloween party then that is a different story.

I hope everyone’s Halloween night is fun and exciting. Make sure to make smart choices and be safe.

Lost three pounds!

I lost three pounds this past week because I walked three times around a park for a thing. I was in garb and sprayed myself a lot with anti-sun lotion spray and still managed to get burned. I was a crispy critter spliced with being cooked like eggs and bacon. I think my brain is still over done. I want bacon now…

I also learned that day that I bought one fairground food and it was the cinnamon and sugar covered almonds. I only had eight almonds and my sugar sky rocketed, but thanks to all that walking it wasn’t as bad as it could have been. But, now I have to give up my nuts at fair now…  TT__TT

I lost my track of thought.

…Bacon.

Th bacon calls to me. Oh yeah the sun tried to kill me, but I still have a pulse. My brain might have taken a hit though.

I’m seriously considering getting myself some bacon after work today. Because bacon is awesome and we should make a bacon based religion because that would be cool.

HUZZAH!

 

I’m so tired.

 

 

 

 

And this time…

I’m starting another diet run today. I also feel like I keep repeating myself, but then I keep telling myself at least I never completely quit. Who cares if I restart things a million times? Reinventing yourself every once in awhile is a good thing.

Tragedy in Las Vegas…

My heart goes out to friends and family who either lost their life or knows someone who lost their life. This is beyond tragedy and is literally incomprehensible. My mind cannot wrap around it. I am safe and I have been making texts and stuff to make sure others are okay. The massive shooting…this act of violence…why is there so much violence in the world?

Other things have happened in my personal life and now this happens. It’s as if 2017 is really piling it on thick. I pray all the victims and survivors find peace and blessed be to all.

Gaming Back log and overwhelmed

As newer games come out that I am interested in and/or eager to play my back log becomes bigger and bigger. Some games I quit because I either got frustrated, bored, or sensory overload by the other shiny games. When you think you’ve hit your limit another new shiny game comes out. I have also a collecting habit. If I have the first part or two parts and another sequel or prequel comes out then I buy it even if I haven’t finished any of the other games. This is also true with my books. Because it’s a set and they are a family and must be together. lolz XD

Anyway, I think I am going to start slowing down and also put my foot down and only buy games from series that I enjoy and know from now on. Also, I will not buy the next game in a string of games if I haven’t finished the first one or first few. I need to pick a game and stick with it? I also want to cut my gaming time down to have time to do other hobbies in my free time and possibly get other stuff done.

I started back at the gym last week so yay for me! ^^;

Also, the changed meds the doctor prescribed kinda made me sick so I went back to taking that one pill once a day after I eat.

I want to drop fifteen pounds before the ren fair that is coming up. Wish me luck!

 

New FitBit…sort of.

A friend from work gave me her old FitBit Charge HR, while mine is just a Charge and also starting to fall apart. The only new thing the Charge HR does is track heart beat. That’s the only difference between the two. I can fully get back into the swing of things with this new FitBit. I all ready set it up to the app on my phone and I am good to go. The only thing is that it fits snugly around my wrist. I’m assuming if I lose more weight it will start to fit better yes?

I am feeling under the weather this week and also the weather has been crummy this past week. There has been random thunderstorms and no one knows how to drive in a desert that never sees rain that they do not know what do do when it happens or how to identify it. I will be starting up back at the gym on either Monday or Tuesday with a co-worker because she decided to change her workout time to the afternoon in stead of in the mornings before work. Hopefully I can acclimate to my routine again and hopefully get used to doing weights.

New Book! ^^

The Tower of Dawn, by Sarah J. Maas just came out last night! As I looked through it I thought it was going to be a novella, but it’s around 600 pages and around 61 chapters long! This is a novel and probably really should be considered the fifth book in the series. However, it is about Chaol and the events take place during the timeline in the last book side by side, but now Chaol is the protagonist and I am a bit excited about this. I’m not a Chaol fan, I like the character so it shouldn’t be difficult to read through this book and it should be able to hold me over until the final volume is released in May.

Squee! New book!

 

 

That is all…