Category Archives: Holidays

Holiday Happiness?

I’ve been trying to get excited for the holidays and forcing happiness is never good. Maybe I’m not excited about Thanksgiving this year. I might be a little excited for Christmas this year because I want to put up all the pretty lights and stuff. I have forgone putting up a Christmas tree for the last few years because of cats. I have two cats and they are very mischievous. I don’t want them to eat the tree or knock it down and hit something or someone. But, this year I have a plan that should stop them from going anywhere near the tree.

The holidays have always been difficult for me even if it didn’t show as much or at all when I was a kid so no one ever knew. I was always distracted by the lights and shiny things. I always also felt that I HAD to do things like give friends and family presents, smile and be happy just because it’s Christmas time, sing carols, and be apart of the holiday activities. I felt like I didn’t have a say I was just told to do these things without choosing to do them on my own. Even if it wasn’t my parents telling me to participate then I involuntary participated on my own, or smiled because I didn’t want to be ostracized from my classmates or peers. Christmas to me has always been a pain in the ass. I never understood the whole over commercialized holiday where capitalism is celebrated on a holy day meant for a fictional baby that was born in a manger.

No offense.

I just think differently and I do respect other people’s faith. Whatever you believe in keep doing that. Whatever gets you through the day and helps you out that’s great. It just isn’t for me.

The holidays should be meant for keeping families together and spending time and not about material things or anything else for that matter.

I’m really trying this year to be excited and happy about Christmas and I’m going to cross my fingers that my cats don’t knock down the tree when I put it up, or I will lose my last shred of holiday cheer and then no more trees. My plan will work though and I’m feeling positive about it. So good luck to everyone out there who have a cat or cats and are putting up trees this year. Be careful not to use tinsel because cats love to eat that stuff and they will get sick! …that and you’ll have to clean shiny poop out of the litter box.

It’s almost Halloween time…

Tomorrow is Halloween and I have the pleasure of doling out sugary treats among the masses to little humans dressed up as imaginary and fictitious characters. Hopefully I myself do not slip into a sugary coma myself because a diabetic coma would not be good. After Halloween I want to lose 11 pounds by November 18th and I think I can do that. I’m all gung ho about this because I need to fit into my old pair of jeans for a cosplay for a convention that weekend.

Anyway, the bigger plan for Halloween night is to also watch scary thrillers and Halloween themed movies while gorging on air popped popcorn drizzled in melted butter. I learned my lesson last year not to be pre-occupied by gaming because it was a hassle to keep getting up and down from my game cave to the front door. This wasn’t a physical challenge as it was more a hearing challenge. I couldn’t hear the door bell from my game cave. I want to dress up as something when I answer the door, but I figure I don’t want to because I am lazy. If I was going to a Halloween party then that is a different story.

I hope everyone’s Halloween night is fun and exciting. Make sure to make smart choices and be safe.

Happy Easter!

Well, while being on break I was able to go to the gym twice. Then tomorrow morning I am going to do my run with my running partner. I got on the scale this morning and it was not pretty. Being on vacation sucks sometimes and you do not realize the damage you do until it is too late. I do not know if I mentioned this in a post before, but I did receive bad news last Saturday on the 8th. Before my test I learned a friend passed away and he had been battling brain cancer for a long time. I gathered my strength and took my test and the irony is that I did better in math than I did in reading. This is ironic because I am better in the language arts than I am in mathematics. I was just seven points away from passing my math. SEVEN!

If studying for a half an hour a week for two months gave me a fourteen point jump from my first scoring in November then I shall have to study harder. I am determined and I can do this to achieve my goals. This also applies to my weight loss journey. I hate calling it “my weight loss journey”. It sounds asinine and I have been depressed about it. I talked to my mother about getting weight loss surgery. I also talked to a friend who had got it done and she lost 87 pounds in six months. My mother thinks I can still do it on my own and I do not need the surgery. I have been trying to do it on my own ever since the sixth grade. I am so frustrated and I hate these diets or to be on a diet. You do not truly want something until you are told you can not have it. There are a lot of mixed feelings about getting weight loss surgery. I also do not want to have surgery only to just gain the weight back.

Sunday, I am cooking Easter dinner and having one of my uncles over for dinner along with mom and myself. Hopefully I will not over cook the turkey. I hope everyone else has a pleasant Easter and good blessings to all.

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

Happy of happiest drinking days! lolz

Although, I am not a drinker, but I still revel in the corn beef, potatoes, and cabbage. I am going over to my brother’s place because he’s cooking. I have not had these foods in a long time. In my family on my mother’s side we are a little Irish along with German, and mostly Italian. On my dad’s side is German, Irish, Austrian, and mostly English. So if you are a math wiz you can figure out how much Irish I am. ^_^;

I will start my new diet on Saturday if I can form a good plan by tomorrow. But, it might not happen until Monday because currently I am under the weather (nothing catching). It involves craving chocolate. These feelings too shall pass.

I hope everyone has a blessed day today and be safe and do not do anything too stupid. 🙂

Happy Valenti…NOPE!

…Happy Single’s Awareness Day! Well, actually it is tomorrow officially and then unofficially it is celebrated whenever the hell you feel like in February. I plan on officially celebrating on Saturday. I am having a cheat day and I had ordered fancy cakes from a bakery a few weeks ago to be delivered.  Truth be told though, have been cheating here and there and only lost a few pounds and inches. Imagine if I got rid of all the temptation how really great I would be doing!

I have not faltered from my exercise routine, except last Friday I did not attend my dance class, but this was because it was my uncle’s birthday and I had to cook and stuff. I was told two days before that it was being held at my place. Apparently this is a thing that is done in my family and in itself is a tradition. If this is a tradition you would think I would anticipate it better, but I did not remember my uncle’s birthday. Yes, that sounds horrible, but I have a lot on my plate in life right now.

After this week I am going to really buckle down…you know before Easter rolls around. ^_^;;

The sweets are too good and that is all my brain keeps screaming at me especially when a holiday like this is around makes it worse. This is not just a battle, but this is a war that I must win at all costs. I refuse to celebrate Valentine’s Day since I am single and I have a valid reason for being cynical today. The flowers, candy, balloons, couples PDA, and yes even television betrays me with a plethora of romance films. In these romance films there are five set reused plots that are used over and over again making these movies very predictable. Who ever watches these should get a gold star and a merit badge, because I do not know how they can have the time, brain capacity, or attention span to watch them. If it makes you happy to watch them good for you and all that jazz, but they are not for me and they are not my cup of tea. If by chance someone does not reuse one of the five reusable plots, and does a new love story plot that is not predictable, I would like to know about it and I might give it a watch.

I took a handful of film classes while I was in college and now I can see stuff in film and television that the critics see. This has either ruined watching film/TV for me or it has enhanced it because now I see things differently because of my experiences from those classes. If you are serious about being in the film business or doing television and you either want to learn or take some classes be warned. You’ll never look at film or television shows again in the same way.

Romance is way overrated and being single can be a great thing! You can do whatever you want and when you want! You do not have to worry about considering the other person or compromising. Sure, there are down sides to being single too like being lonely or wanting the touch of another. There are also down sides to being in a relationship too. There are pros and cons with anything. If you are single you have no ties to anyone and can do anything. Love yourself and celebrate it and be grateful and happy about the body you are in. Have fun with being single and if you are with that special someone celebrate and cherish each other everyday and not just on this holiday that was created by the card, flower, and candy companies. Life is short kids…live every moment like it is your last!