So I finally made two connections to two things and figured out what was going on after trying to figure out what the cause was for my dizziness. What am I talking about?
Periodically and sporadically, I would get short three minute dizzy spells and on a rarer occasion they last five minutes. I decided to get my blood pressure checked not too long after a dizzy spell yesterday and it came out to 151/87 and they said it was a little high. I then checked it this morning and it was still slightly high…I remember I think it was 131/6…something?
I think my high blood pressure is anxiety/stress induced. I’ve been stressing out a lot these past….well since January.
So now I am in “Operation: Chill out and Calm the Frak down” mode and I also am dieting really hard to get my weight down. Because high blood pressure will go away when you lose weight and on the plus side my diabetes will get better. This past week I also had not had time to exercise so that part is my fault. There should be no excuses. It was and is very scary of this new discovery. I really, really, really do NOT want another medication put on me. I’m also thinking about my father and I’m starting to be like him (health wise) and it makes me more angry than scared.
I know my mom keeps telling me not to worry so much and not to worry about everything. It’s a lot like how you can’t tell a cancer patient to stop having cancer. It doesn’t work that way. Anxiety has to be worked through. You can’t just turn it off and on by sheer will or like a light switch.
I know I have many things to work on and maybe I’ll take it really seriously this time and not pull what my dad pulled and be good for three weeks so not to be put on insulin because he’s afraid of needles and then go back to the way you were and then die anyway.
I am not my father.
I’m still alive.
….I have a lot on my mind.
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This past Saturday I went on a hiking trip up near Lake Mead on the Railroad trail. I went with a group of very awesome friends and we walked an hour in and then turned around and walked an hour back. I got a lot of dirt and rocks in my shoes and I had to stop to get them out occasionally. I packed stuff that I though I might need in my back pack for the trail. I almost felt like Cheryl Strayed and that I had Monster on my back. I felt it later in my upper back that I was sore. This will take awhile to heal and I can go to the gym and still get exercise, but playing Just Dance will have to wait until the weekend.
The Super Bowl was awesome! I went to my brother’s place and we were all rooting for the Eagles. This game has been the most interesting game in the last couple of years! There was some awesome plays too that were really exciting. 🙂
There was lots of food, rejoicing, cake, and fireworks. This weekend was really great. Also my books that I ordered came in and the covers felt wonderful and the smell of the them was phenomenal! I’m still waiting on one more book to be delivered. I got six new books…two of which I already own on my Kindle, but I love the series so much I am trying to collect them in paperback form. I’m up to “Heir of Fire” now with collecting and I got the “Assassin’s Blade” which is a prequel novella of lots of different stories of the main character from “The Glass Throne” by Sarah J. Maas.
Other than that the new list of books are as follows:
1. Clockwork Angel (The infernal Devices Series #1), by Cassandra Clare
2. Red Queen (Red Queen Series #1), by Victoria Aveyard
3. Anna Dressed in Blood, by Kendare Blake
4. The Girl of Fire and Thorns, by Rae Carson
I’m really excited to read these and I can’t wait! Although, I am going to wait until I have a mini vacation in a couple of weeks to read the Assassin’s Blade cause I heard it plays on the heart strings and I will need to prepare things just in case I wind up an emotional mess. ^^;
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I finished awhile ago “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed. I got inspired to change a few things and I do want to go hiking more and change my name for a change that feels closer to me. I keep thinking it’s not okay to have many metamorphosis through out one’s life. But, it is okay and it’s okay to keep changing.
There was other stuff that had happened in my short absence of not posting, but I’ll be ready to post that another day.
I have been very busy and I’ve had a lot going on from the last time I posted. Sorry for anyone that does follow me. But, here is a quick update…
I bought Just Dance 2017 for the Switch and love it. It’s better than DDR and I can see me using it for a long time with out it getting out dated in a way of me always ruining dance pads and replacing them. The dance pads are hard to come by and they aren’t always working for me. I think I will enjoy this form of video game exercise for a long time to come.
Next is the hiking trip with the Very Awesome Girls this Saturday. I will blog about it after and hopefully post some pictures. I want to be more active and I want to get an A in my Japanese class. New plans and new ways of thinking and I want to document it all by writing in my paper journals.
I want to read more and keep my brain more active. I splurged a bit and bought six new books to read. I figure if reading just a bit normal than usual made my points on the Reading part of my big test jump up high…think of the brain power when I read even more! Oh by the way I past that big test by three points! Yay me! \(^_^)/
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Tomorrow is Halloween and I have the pleasure of doling out sugary treats among the masses to little humans dressed up as imaginary and fictitious characters. Hopefully I myself do not slip into a sugary coma myself because a diabetic coma would not be good. After Halloween I want to lose 11 pounds by November 18th and I think I can do that. I’m all gung ho about this because I need to fit into my old pair of jeans for a cosplay for a convention that weekend.
Anyway, the bigger plan for Halloween night is to also watch scary thrillers and Halloween themed movies while gorging on air popped popcorn drizzled in melted butter. I learned my lesson last year not to be pre-occupied by gaming because it was a hassle to keep getting up and down from my game cave to the front door. This wasn’t a physical challenge as it was more a hearing challenge. I couldn’t hear the door bell from my game cave. I want to dress up as something when I answer the door, but I figure I don’t want to because I am lazy. If I was going to a Halloween party then that is a different story.
I hope everyone’s Halloween night is fun and exciting. Make sure to make smart choices and be safe.
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I lost three pounds this past week because I walked three times around a park for a thing. I was in garb and sprayed myself a lot with anti-sun lotion spray and still managed to get burned. I was a crispy critter spliced with being cooked like eggs and bacon. I think my brain is still over done. I want bacon now…
I also learned that day that I bought one fairground food and it was the cinnamon and sugar covered almonds. I only had eight almonds and my sugar sky rocketed, but thanks to all that walking it wasn’t as bad as it could have been. But, now I have to give up my nuts at fair now… TT__TT
I lost my track of thought.
Th bacon calls to me. Oh yeah the sun tried to kill me, but I still have a pulse. My brain might have taken a hit though.
I’m seriously considering getting myself some bacon after work today. Because bacon is awesome and we should make a bacon based religion because that would be cool.
I’m so tired.
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As newer games come out that I am interested in and/or eager to play my back log becomes bigger and bigger. Some games I quit because I either got frustrated, bored, or sensory overload by the other shiny games. When you think you’ve hit your limit another new shiny game comes out. I have also a collecting habit. If I have the first part or two parts and another sequel or prequel comes out then I buy it even if I haven’t finished any of the other games. This is also true with my books. Because it’s a set and they are a family and must be together. lolz XD
Anyway, I think I am going to start slowing down and also put my foot down and only buy games from series that I enjoy and know from now on. Also, I will not buy the next game in a string of games if I haven’t finished the first one or first few. I need to pick a game and stick with it? I also want to cut my gaming time down to have time to do other hobbies in my free time and possibly get other stuff done.
I started back at the gym last week so yay for me! ^^;
Also, the changed meds the doctor prescribed kinda made me sick so I went back to taking that one pill once a day after I eat.
I want to drop fifteen pounds before the ren fair that is coming up. Wish me luck!
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A friend from work gave me her old FitBit Charge HR, while mine is just a Charge and also starting to fall apart. The only new thing the Charge HR does is track heart beat. That’s the only difference between the two. I can fully get back into the swing of things with this new FitBit. I all ready set it up to the app on my phone and I am good to go. The only thing is that it fits snugly around my wrist. I’m assuming if I lose more weight it will start to fit better yes?
I am feeling under the weather this week and also the weather has been crummy this past week. There has been random thunderstorms and no one knows how to drive in a desert that never sees rain that they do not know what do do when it happens or how to identify it. I will be starting up back at the gym on either Monday or Tuesday with a co-worker because she decided to change her workout time to the afternoon in stead of in the mornings before work. Hopefully I can acclimate to my routine again and hopefully get used to doing weights.
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My leg is healing nicely and it is also starting to itch a bit today. My mom says that means it’s healing. I should head to the gym tomorrow because the wound shouldn’t open up or anything. I’ll check the bandage tomorrow after I’ve changed it.
I’ve also updated Midnight Raven tab, Gamer 4 Life tab, and possibly others so check it out. 🙂
I’ve also started writing more and hopefully getting to my art more. I have to bake cookies after work today for a thing on Wednesday. They will be Mario star cookies. ^^;
I had eggs for breakfast this morning and I want so many things and make it happen, but then things happen and then it’s just all over the place. I think I will have liquid for lunch and dinner today.
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