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Stress and Health…

So I finally made two connections to two things and figured out what was going on after trying to figure out what the cause was for my dizziness. What am I talking about?

Periodically and sporadically, I would get short three minute dizzy spells and on a rarer occasion they last five minutes. I decided to get my blood pressure checked not too long after a dizzy spell yesterday and it came out to 151/87 and they said it was a little high. I then checked it this morning and it was still slightly high…I remember I think it was 131/6…something?

I think my high blood pressure is anxiety/stress induced. I’ve been stressing out a lot these past….well since January.

So now I am in “Operation: Chill out and Calm the Frak down” mode and I also am dieting really hard to get my weight down. Because high blood pressure will go away when you lose weight and on the plus side my diabetes will get better. This past week I also had not had time to exercise so that part is my fault. There should be no excuses. It was and is very scary of this new discovery. I really, really, really do NOT want another medication put on me. I’m also thinking about my father and I’m starting to be like him (health wise) and it makes me more angry than scared.

I know my mom keeps telling me not to worry so much and not to worry about everything. It’s a lot like how you can’t tell a cancer patient to stop having cancer. It doesn’t work that way. Anxiety has to be worked through. You can’t just turn it off and on by sheer will or like a light switch.

I know I have many things to work on and maybe I’ll take it really seriously this time and not pull what my dad pulled and be good for three weeks so not to be put on insulin because he’s afraid of needles and then go back to the way you were and then die anyway.

I am not my father.

I’m still alive.

….I have a lot on my mind.

Another update!

I ran out of subject lines…

Anyway, now that the weather is getting cooler it means that I can go outside to train. I also decided to give taking that one medicine twice a day another shot. This time though I won’t be eating a lot of junk because I think that led to me living in the bathroom. Well this medicine does make you GO, but amplifying that while eating junk food is NOT a good idea. I need to lower my blood sugar and I really want to do better and I keep forgetting that I really, really, really, really want to fit into a nice dress for my brother’s wedding. I am also trying to lose 12-14 pounds before the 18th of this month and if not  at least inches so I can fit into my jeans to do a cosplay for a thing that weekend. So far since Sunday I lost three pounds of what I was, but I know that’s mostly water weight because I recently was having female issues.

It’s back to the gym for me today and I need to really stop drinking diet soda. I know the bad things it can do, but I did some more updated research today and I was horrified. Aspartame can poison you so much and seriously no human should drink soda. ever.

Once in a blue moon maybe, but not everyday or week. Regular soda has it’s bad side too, but diet soda is worse. I need to free myself from my addiction to Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry.

In another development I seem to not like ice cream any more. It’s not the texture, but the flavor (even if it’s super chocolatey) just doesn’t do it for me anymore. I’ve been trying for a couple of months taste testing. I know what your thinking… “this is a good thing! You’re diabetic you idiot you shouldn’t be eating that stuff anyway!” Well you’re right, but once in awhile I want to indulge. At first I thought it was allergies or I was getting a cold. Because you can’t taste crap when you start to get a cold, but that wasn’t it. Then my next conclusion was either:

A. My taste buds are changing

B. The increase in that one medication is changing things.

C. I burnt my taste buds one too many times on hot foods because I was super hungry and couldn’t wait.

D. All of the above

There can be a number of things why.

Tonight’s dinner will be a healthy one of baked salmon with lemon pepper seasoning and some steamed veggies. So it’s one step in the right direction.

Lost three pounds!

I lost three pounds this past week because I walked three times around a park for a thing. I was in garb and sprayed myself a lot with anti-sun lotion spray and still managed to get burned. I was a crispy critter spliced with being cooked like eggs and bacon. I think my brain is still over done. I want bacon now…

I also learned that day that I bought one fairground food and it was the cinnamon and sugar covered almonds. I only had eight almonds and my sugar sky rocketed, but thanks to all that walking it wasn’t as bad as it could have been. But, now I have to give up my nuts at fair now…  TT__TT

I lost my track of thought.

…Bacon.

Th bacon calls to me. Oh yeah the sun tried to kill me, but I still have a pulse. My brain might have taken a hit though.

I’m seriously considering getting myself some bacon after work today. Because bacon is awesome and we should make a bacon based religion because that would be cool.

HUZZAH!

 

I’m so tired.

 

 

 

 

New FitBit…sort of.

A friend from work gave me her old FitBit Charge HR, while mine is just a Charge and also starting to fall apart. The only new thing the Charge HR does is track heart beat. That’s the only difference between the two. I can fully get back into the swing of things with this new FitBit. I all ready set it up to the app on my phone and I am good to go. The only thing is that it fits snugly around my wrist. I’m assuming if I lose more weight it will start to fit better yes?

I am feeling under the weather this week and also the weather has been crummy this past week. There has been random thunderstorms and no one knows how to drive in a desert that never sees rain that they do not know what do do when it happens or how to identify it. I will be starting up back at the gym on either Monday or Tuesday with a co-worker because she decided to change her workout time to the afternoon in stead of in the mornings before work. Hopefully I can acclimate to my routine again and hopefully get used to doing weights.

Then this happened…

I saw my doctor after work yesterday and turns out my A1C (not AC1…apparently I am slightly dyslexic when I can’t sleep) actually did drop down! Not by much, but it’s better than the last three blood work appointments. The nurse was wrong and it was not 8.2 anymore, but 8.1! Finally! Like I said I’ll take what I can get right now and now at least all my hard work is finally starting to pay off. I also noticed while I go to the gym whether sporadically or on point like I am suppose to I’ve been getting my protein from eggs which keeps me from having the munchies and being hungry. One of my friends pointed out when one time last year when I started going to the gym again after not going that I couldn’t understand why I was so hungry. She explained I needed more protein and that would curb the hungry/munchies. I can’t always get my hands on chicken let alone fish because fish is more expensive. So eggs is the next best thing to get my hands on for protein. I realize other foods have protein too, but I love eggs better even though it’s not one of my favorite foods. Eggs are just the easiest thing for me to cook in the morning before work.

That’s where we are right now. I’ll keep everyone posted and it turns out this summer I did lose a total of ten pounds. I hope to keep this up and lower my blood sugar further. It’s a start….

Back at the Gym

So I have been hitting the gym again as of late and I have dropped a few more pounds. I am down to 307 pounds. I am so close to getting under that 300 so badly I may be taking a few risks so I can get there and then I will diet as normal. I have a doctor’s appointment this Thursday and I visited the vampires today. I know my AC1 levels probably still did not drop, but I am going to give it one more shot before the next AC1 level blood glucose check. Then I will ask for a higher dose on one of my medications and actually pay the higher price because my insurance can be a jerk sometimes.

For those of you who do not know what AC1 levels are all I can explain it is when you are diabetic they take a snapshot of these levels every three to four months (no sooner or later) to keep a watch on your overall blood glucose (blood sugars) in your body. Yes, I still have to test my blood sugar twice a day to make sure I am not too low or too high. But, we need my AC1’s to lower so that I can be healthier. Normal AC1 levels are around 5.5 for normal people. When you get into the 6.0 and higher that’s when you get to the dangerous levels and you need to keep your sugar levels in your blood in check. Mine is 8.2 last time I had blood drawn. I hate taking medications, but if I have to I will and to change that or to add more medications makes me cringe and freak out because I do not like it. But, I digress if it still has not changed and does not change the next time I get my blood drawn in three months then I will ask about upping one of my medications that I take.

Now, if I lose the weight and get healthy and get my blood sugar levels to normal then I can do away with all my medication and live a somewhat normal non diabetic life. This means as explained to me by one of my physicians that he told me that I will always be diabetic…I just won’t have to take any medication. But! I still would have to keep checking my sugar levels just in case. So it is reversible…sort of. Your pancreas is like a car. If you run it into the ground, don’t take care of it, abuse the car it will be in pretty bad shape. You can start taking better care of that car, but it will never be the same as when you bought it brand new from the car store. You can fix it and it will live a healthy car life when you start taking better care of it and yet it will never be the same. You always have to check it to make sure it’s still in good condition. At least this is how that doctor explained it to me because I had told him I had doctors in the past tell me it’s completely reversible since I do not take insulin…yet (at that point in time and I haven’t gotten to that point…yet. thank goodness and I am trying not to.)

So there is your abridged crash course of Diabetes 101. If you have any questions about diabetes or blood sugar levels you can leave them in the comments below. Thank you for your time and patience in reading my blog!