I went to the gym on Friday and then skipped Saturday and then went yesterday, Sunday morning and I was going to go today on Memorial Day. There are a couple of reasons holding me back from going.
- Memorial Day Drivers (I don’t want to get into an accident)
- Women’s issues happened to me yesterday evening, but thankfully I am not in a lot of pain. (knock on wood and hope for the best)
- I neglected my laundry with being busy and wanting to rest, but it seems like I keep getting roped into staying busy. This has it’s good and bad points.
- I’m not just making excuses to make excuses.
If I were to go to the gym in this state I would need to wear black pants just in case and well, I ran out and therefore that is why I have to stay home and do laundry. But, I am on a mission. It’s 124 days until my brother’s wedding and I am determined to look good in a dress and look good in the videos and photos. I don’t want to look like a cute potato in a dress. Did I mention I hate wearing dresses? It’s the tomboy in me.
I am also on a new medication that hopefully will help me on this journey and focus this summer to finish the goals I set for myself. I want to lose at least a healthy range of 30 pounds this summer. But, since I am so heavy and with this new medication I do not mind losing 40-50 pounds and then stopping for my body to adjust as long as a lot of inches come off with it. I want to get under the 300 pound mark and so far I have lost like 2-3 pounds. I could weight myself more to see if that I lost more, but lady problems with the bloating prevents me from seeing any progress. I also have a bad habit of not drinking enough water. I used to drink a lot of water when I was younger and I don’t know how I got into the habit of not drinking enough water. I am just not thirsty enough I guess? It’s not the taste. I have a great water system in the home and I have had so many friends suggest water flavorings that are either natural fruits to artificial diabetic friendly flavorings. To be honest though, to flavor my water with any of these options would make me want to drink water less. To me water should be just that…water. Any weird flavorings and subconsciously my brain would start thinking I am trying to poison it.
Also, I wanted to mention that I joined a weight loss program called Real Appeal. I found out about it from work and other co-workers have joined. Now I am not a person to jump on band wagons or jump off the bridge with everyone else like a freaking sheep. But, I decided to try anything once especially when you hear good things. There’s a lot of things I don’t like about it and there are a few things that I do like about it. I got a free kit in the mail with a digital scale, exercise equipment thing (I have no idea what they call it), work books, a plate with color coded portions of how you should eat, exercise dvd’s, and stuff. And then there is the live video classes you can do from your computer or smart phone. The class is thirty minutes and you set up what time you want to join. I’ll keep this blog updated with all that stuff.
Wish me luck!
P.S. That one doctor on my last doctor’s visit on May 3rd pissed me off so I am going to prove I don’t need that medication with the two really bad side effects. I’m going to prove her wrong. I can do this without it.