Monthly Archives: November 2017

Holiday Happiness?

I’ve been trying to get excited for the holidays and forcing happiness is never good. Maybe I’m not excited about Thanksgiving this year. I might be a little excited for Christmas this year because I want to put up all the pretty lights and stuff. I have forgone putting up a Christmas tree for the last few years because of cats. I have two cats and they are very mischievous. I don’t want them to eat the tree or knock it down and hit something or someone. But, this year I have a plan that should stop them from going anywhere near the tree.

The holidays have always been difficult for me even if it didn’t show as much or at all when I was a kid so no one ever knew. I was always distracted by the lights and shiny things. I always also felt that I HAD to do things like give friends and family presents, smile and be happy just because it’s Christmas time, sing carols, and be apart of the holiday activities. I felt like I didn’t have a say I was just told to do these things without choosing to do them on my own. Even if it wasn’t my parents telling me to participate then I involuntary participated on my own, or smiled because I didn’t want to be ostracized from my classmates or peers. Christmas to me has always been a pain in the ass. I never understood the whole over commercialized holiday where capitalism is celebrated on a holy day meant for a fictional baby that was born in a manger.

No offense.

I just think differently and I do respect other people’s faith. Whatever you believe in keep doing that. Whatever gets you through the day and helps you out that’s great. It just isn’t for me.

The holidays should be meant for keeping families together and spending time and not about material things or anything else for that matter.

I’m really trying this year to be excited and happy about Christmas and I’m going to cross my fingers that my cats don’t knock down the tree when I put it up, or I will lose my last shred of holiday cheer and then no more trees. My plan will work though and I’m feeling positive about it. So good luck to everyone out there who have a cat or cats and are putting up trees this year. Be careful not to use tinsel because cats love to eat that stuff and they will get sick! …that and you’ll have to clean shiny poop out of the litter box.

Another update!

I ran out of subject lines…

Anyway, now that the weather is getting cooler it means that I can go outside to train. I also decided to give taking that one medicine twice a day another shot. This time though I won’t be eating a lot of junk because I think that led to me living in the bathroom. Well this medicine does make you GO, but amplifying that while eating junk food is NOT a good idea. I need to lower my blood sugar and I really want to do better and I keep forgetting that I really, really, really, really want to fit into a nice dress for my brother’s wedding. I am also trying to lose 12-14 pounds before the 18th of this month and if not  at least inches so I can fit into my jeans to do a cosplay for a thing that weekend. So far since Sunday I lost three pounds of what I was, but I know that’s mostly water weight because I recently was having female issues.

It’s back to the gym for me today and I need to really stop drinking diet soda. I know the bad things it can do, but I did some more updated research today and I was horrified. Aspartame can poison you so much and seriously no human should drink soda. ever.

Once in a blue moon maybe, but not everyday or week. Regular soda has it’s bad side too, but diet soda is worse. I need to free myself from my addiction to Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry.

In another development I seem to not like ice cream any more. It’s not the texture, but the flavor (even if it’s super chocolatey) just doesn’t do it for me anymore. I’ve been trying for a couple of months taste testing. I know what your thinking… “this is a good thing! You’re diabetic you idiot you shouldn’t be eating that stuff anyway!” Well you’re right, but once in awhile I want to indulge. At first I thought it was allergies or I was getting a cold. Because you can’t taste crap when you start to get a cold, but that wasn’t it. Then my next conclusion was either:

A. My taste buds are changing

B. The increase in that one medication is changing things.

C. I burnt my taste buds one too many times on hot foods because I was super hungry and couldn’t wait.

D. All of the above

There can be a number of things why.

Tonight’s dinner will be a healthy one of baked salmon with lemon pepper seasoning and some steamed veggies. So it’s one step in the right direction.