Yesterday I did my run, but this time I am officially calling week four of the C25K app the week of hell. Now it starts getting harder and it pushed my limits and I thought I was going to die. Even if a lot of my muscles were screaming at me I did not falter and stayed in running mode and walking mode when it told me to. I think my running partner is doing better than me, but I am not in competition with her I am in competition with myself. I want to do better from the last year when I did this app and I did complete all eight weeks. So, towards the end of my run yesterday when I had to run for five minute intervals (and I have stated multiple times that when I say run that I jog…so just a reminder) I started to “baby jog” them because I refuse to walk because then what is the purpose of the training? One day I want to be able to actually run and I think I will as soon as the weight comes off. I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 314 pounds. I weighed myself because today is February first. I want to make a goal or a promise that my next weigh in should be March first, and then after that it should just always be the first of every month so that I do not drive myself crazy.
Nothing is ever perfect and neither is diet and exercise. It is a process and when we fall we have to get up, dust ourselves off, and try again. We must learn to be stubborn with ourselves and stay the course. Even if our brains scream “ice cream”! We must not give in. I just want to remind myself of that. If you want something it takes hard work, discipline, and dedication. Rome was not built in a day and so the weight is not going to come off in a day. We must be patient with ourselves and pick ourselves up when we fall or have a bad day, but do not pick up that candy bar or drive through that fast food place. There has to be other ways of coping with stress or a bad day than food. This is geared towards emotional eaters or bored eaters. I mean if you really want something you’ll work for it and find time to do it and if you do not then you’ll find an excuse which means you must really not want it that bad.