Monthly Archives: January 2017

I am absolutely convinced that diet soda is the devil.

I had some diet soda on Saturday night because I had not had any for awhile. I also did this as an experiment. Then something happened the next morning when I got on the scale. I gained two pounds apparently. Yes, you can chock it up to (especially for women) the body’s weight fluctuates, and one should not weigh themselves frequently. Whenever I go on these health journeys I always find myself frustrated, bewildered, and I want instant gratification. I know logically that the weight gain did not happen over night because it was a combination of many years of bad food choices and lack of motivation to be active. It certainly is not going to come off in a fort night just because I cranked up my activity level and started making better food choices.

As far as diet soda goes, in my opinion, is worse than regular soda and yet I can not drink that either because I am diabetic. I might as well drink battery acid because soda is not good for you period. When I drink diet soda I get bad cramps in my legs and headaches, my stomach is bloated, and I start craving sugary and heavily starched foods. I notice once I stop drinking this crap (and it takes a good while) that I stop craving a lot of the bad things that are not good for my body. I mean it doesn’t eliminate all, but at least I’m not jumping out of my seat and a voice telling me I need these bad foods. It is an addiction that leads to more bad addictions…in a dietary way.

Also, the caffeine is not good for my anxiety. Yes, caffeine makes anxiety ten times worse or a hundred times worse depending on how much of the stuff you ingest. I could jump and leap to paranoid conclusions that make no sense in a single bound. In worse case scenarios upon drinking too much caffeinated diet soda I have more panic attack episodes even when I am not anxiously thinking about something. The anxiety is manageable and almost non existent when I keep up with my exercise routine and not ingesting any caffeine, but more importantly when I am not drinking any diet soda. I am convinced that other chemicals especially the fake sugars are doing something to my brain as well. I also know for a fact that my anxiety is a lot better when after a few months of adequate exercise, a good diet, and meditation (with a bit of yoga) I become a healthier happier person mentally and physically.

The only reason I wound up having some diet soda this weekend was before the diet I thought I drank and got rid of them all in my fridge, but only to discover I had one more box of 12 cans in the kitchen closet while cleaning. With any addiction it’s important to get rid of any temptation, and I should have done a more thorough inspection of my kitchen…

No worries, no one is perfect, and when we fall we get back up on the horse and try again. As long as we keep trying (even if there are setbacks) and do not give up it is still doing more than doing nothing. So, yes diet soda is the devil and that is my story and I am sticking to it.

Sore, but still running…

Last night I had my Arabic Dancing class (Belly Dance) and danced for two hours! It felt good and I was so excited to be dancing again. We stretched before and after class and a little in between so that helped with this morning’s run. I’m a big person so when I talk about using the C25K app and running I really mean baby jogging, but in hindsight it’s running to me. I hope to actually run as I keep training. Everyone’s gotta start somewhere!

I got up at 5:30 this morning to run at six with a friend because we usually go running at nine in the morning, but she has meetings later and stuff. I think it was a lot better to run that early in the morning because then there are no people around at all or getting in the way. It was kind of dark and at one point I almost tripped over a piece of broken pine cone. I wondered where the hell did that come from? I looked around and saw a row of pine trees on the other side of the street. ^_^;

It was really cold and I should have brought my sweater, but I didn’t want to be too hot when I ran. My hands were freezing and I had to stick them in my pockets. I had the volume on loud enough on my phone so I could hear it if I had it in my pocket. I also had my up beat J-Pop anime music play list on blast. As soon as I get warm I know I will start to feel the aches and pains. So, it is rest for me Sunday and Monday from exercise, but not laundry and work unfortunately. The good news is all the endorphins and everything else are up and running that I’m in a good mood and I can’t go back to sleep. I must of fell asleep last night around 9:30pm so I think I got my eight hours in of sleep. I am about to eat breakfast which is one of those Quaker instant oatmeal things in a cup and it’s the brown sugar flavor. I just fix those up and add a little cream and it’s delicious. I’m glad I made the decision not to eat before my training. If I would have done that then while running it would have been a scene from the Glass Throne where Celaena first starts training for the Champion competition and her and Chaol were running and she would have to stop to wretch. Yeah…if I eat breakfast I want it to stay in my stomach and not on the sidewalk thank you.

The rest of today’s itinerary probably would be some laundry, maybe some reading, continue writing that play, and maybe some poetry writing later. I want to put up a section on this blog for my poetry. Also I will be praying that my allergies don’t come back. I usually take a 24 hour Claritan, but I don’t want to be taking that everyday because then my body gets used to it and then it’ll be ineffective.

I’ll try and blog my progress as much as I can, but I do tend to forget and hopefully things will work out and I will lose those fifty pounds by June so I can hop on a plane and go see my friend on the other side of the country. I want to be comfortable on a plane and especially if it might be a five to seven hour flight. Wish me luck! ^_^

Couch to 5K

I started three weeks ago the C25K app on my phone. I did this last year at the same time and completed it. This time around it’s not so bad as the first time I used the app, but I found myself on the third week and day two struggling a bit. The reason for this could also be because I started wearing new shoes yesterday. I weighed myself yesterday and the scale read 312.6 lbs. and I have lost weight since I started. I used to weigh 319 pounds back in December. I have also decided that even if my overall goal is to be 140 pounds that I will make small goals on my fit bit so I can achieve them faster. My goal is to lose 15 pounds by the end of February. I’m hoping I can make it and I did take a start picture of myself, but I am not posting any of that until I make significant progress. If I get back down to my high school weight then I’ll post progress pictures. I just need to stay positive and stay the course right? I even got two co-workers running with me and using the app. Because exercise and dieting alone does not work for very long no matter how motivated you are.