New FitBit…sort of.

A friend from work gave me her old FitBit Charge HR, while mine is just a Charge and also starting to fall apart. The only new thing the Charge HR does is track heart beat. That’s the only difference between the two. I can fully get back into the swing of things with this new FitBit. I all ready set it up to the app on my phone and I am good to go. The only thing is that it fits snugly around my wrist. I’m assuming if I lose more weight it will start to fit better yes?

I am feeling under the weather this week and also the weather has been crummy this past week. There has been random thunderstorms and no one knows how to drive in a desert that never sees rain that they do not know what do do when it happens or how to identify it. I will be starting up back at the gym on either Monday or Tuesday with a co-worker because she decided to change her workout time to the afternoon in stead of in the mornings before work. Hopefully I can acclimate to my routine again and hopefully get used to doing weights.

New Book! ^^

The Tower of Dawn, by Sarah J. Maas just came out last night! As I looked through it I thought it was going to be a novella, but it’s around 600 pages and around 61 chapters long! This is a novel and probably really should be considered the fifth book in the series. However, it is about Chaol and the events take place during the timeline in the last book side by side, but now Chaol is the protagonist and I am a bit excited about this. I’m not a Chaol fan, I like the character so it shouldn’t be difficult to read through this book and it should be able to hold me over until the final volume is released in May.

Squee! New book!

 

 

That is all…

Long chapters drive me crazy

The third book in the fallen series called, Passion, by Lauren Kate is a little better so far than her previous installments in the series. But, my biggest gripe since the first book is that her chapter are so FREAKING long! I don’t expect them to be super short, but that’s what makes me read and continue on more if I see I am getting somewhere and making progress in my reading by knocking down chapter after chapter. If I am reading and I have to stop somewhere because I  have somewhere to be or go do something, or if I am reading before bed and I don’t want to be stuck right in the middle of something I hate that. It drives me nuts and I can’t be the only one.

This third installment is more interesting this time because…well without spoiling anything let’s just say a lot of past lives are going to be explored. This means more traveling and more interesting events. Let’s keep it that way and not stretch story scenes for too long. It’s just as bad as author’s describing every little detail to the last grain of dust. If your the type of reader that loves that kind of writing in a book then more power to you, but that’s just not my cup of tea.

I love the feel and look of each slip cover for each novel. I have the whole Fallen series because I have a collecting problem. So if I have part one and I haven’t read (or in the case of video games…played it/finished it) I’ll go buy the next installment(s). It’s part of the series so why not?

My thoughts on the characters of the series is that Daniel can be an asshole and you do get pissed at him, but towards the end of book two you see and can feel why he was doing the things he did. In the beginning of Book three this becomes more apparent and you do feel for the guy. Luce on the other hand I felt was just a really dumb love struck teen in the first novel, but towards the middle of the second novel she then starts to have doubts about her relationship to Daniel. I think she’s dumb for staying with a guy that lies, keeps things from her, and other things. Yes, this is for a reason, but when you are with someone you keep them in the loop so they understand what’s going on and their partners actions. It’s just common sense. What is it some sense of superiority alpha male bull shit that he can’t tell her the truth? Maybe there is a bigger picture and another reason for this and I just haven’t gotten to it yet.

More developments on this later as I read further on for book three…

Books and Reading

Has anyone ever read and/or enjoyed the Chicken Noodle Soup books? I have a few of them that I can count on my hand. Right now I currently picked up off my book shelf is “Chicken Noodle Soup for the Ocean Lover’s Soul” and I am enjoying it more than the other ones I have bought. I feel that the ocean can teach us a lot of things and that it is wise and ancient. These stories fit right in with my love for the ocean and its creatures.

I’ve also been reading “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed on my phone through the kindle app. I feel like with her writing I am on the PCT right along with her. Maybe while doing Laundry on Sundays I should just pretend I’m at a Laundry mat and I have to spend all day out there and the only comfort is reading. Then maybe I can get more reading done. You know, tune out the noise of everything and meditate and relax. It’s not like it’s really noisy where I live, but it’s hard to get into that peaceful meditative state. I should practice that more so I can calm my mind and my soul. If it’s not outside noise then it’s too noisy in my head. No one worry I don’t hear voices or anything like that. My brain is always active especially when my anxiety is high or if I am stressing or both.

Everyone should try practicing meditation and take twenty minutes out of their day to have some me time.

Healing and quick update

My leg is healing nicely and it is also starting to itch a bit today. My mom says that means it’s healing. I should head to the gym tomorrow because the wound shouldn’t open up or anything. I’ll check the bandage tomorrow after I’ve changed it.

I’ve also updated Midnight Raven tab, Gamer 4 Life tab, and possibly others so check it out. 🙂

I’ve also started writing more and hopefully getting to my art more. I have to bake cookies after work today for a thing on Wednesday. They will be Mario star cookies. ^^;

I had eggs for breakfast this morning and I want so many things and make it happen, but then things happen and then it’s just all over the place. I think I will have liquid for lunch and dinner today.

And another thing happened…

If I was not frustrated enough…

Last night my oldest cat Fluffy jumped on me my while I had my legs up on a foot rest. She normally does this and wants me to pet her for ten to fifteen minutes then she walks back down my legs and sleeps between or on my feet on the foot rest. With that being said, this time, however, when she walked down my legs to the foot rest one of her legs slipped. One of her claws clawed deep into the lower part of my right calf close to the ankle, but not quite. I freaked out and it was bleeding profusely. I made it to my tub to get it cleaned with the shower head and dabbed rubbing alcohol on it and also poured it onto the wound. I wanted peroxide, but I found out later it was a good thing I could not find it in my house because it will kill the good bacteria as well as the bad. I bandaged it and even showered with it this morning. I had someone who is a nurse look at it today. I got clean bandages and alcohol wipes to clean it again and bandage it again because it was bleeding again through out the day I guess or it happened after I had my shower with it on. I limp a little bit cause it hurts a little bit, but it hurt like a mofo last night when I put that rubbing alcohol on it when it was fresh. And now I can not go to the gym or exercise for awhile until this heals.

My cats are out to get me and sabotage me…

Books and Games

I am frustrated with myself for setting a ten book reading goal for the year. I am a reader and I love to read, but life gets busy, and then there is the whole pesky book ADHD. So I could be reading a lot and yet I am reading three to five different books simultaneously in a month. Hence, I do not get a novel read and finished so I can complete my reading goal. A co-worker told me it can be done if I play less games and read more. That may be true, but it is not like I can’t put a controller down to go read. The reason is games take longer to finish than books and when your interested or having fun then time passes without you noticing and the next thing you know it’s time for bed so you can get up for work in the morning…. okay that was a long winded sentence…

I tried making an organized stable schedule so I can equally do all my hobbies, but then things fall out of sync like they always do and then it’s hard to get back to the schedule you set in the first place. I am not making excuses…maybe complaining a little, but maybe if I tried harder and had more will power? I know this can be done and once you do something over and over again for a month it sticks as a habit.

The current book I am reading is the third in the Fallen series. The title is “Passion” from Lauren Kate. I admit the ending to the second book, Torment, was really good and I started reading Passion and it’s a bit more involved and interesting. You know when there are four or more books in the series that the first book and maybe the second book is going to be drawn out with the plot because the author has to set things up, or is still setting things up and that could be hard to read through. Because if the plot moves so slowly it makes irritated because I’m waiting for things to be revealed. Hopefully I can if I push myself that I can still make that ten novel goal for this year. I have four books done all ready.

I cheated.

Last night I was feeling frustrated and depressed about food (what I could not have and I possibly was going through withdrawal) and was about to cook a frozen pizza I had in the freezer. I only stock up or eat frozen pizza when money is tight and I can not order it. Yeah, so I have emergency pizza… ^^;

I also was taking a rest day from the gym…which does not help me in anyway of what I did.

Anyway, my mom said she wanted pizza (which is not often) and we wind up ordering out for the first time in a long while. She wound up with an Italian sub sandwich and some brownies for dessert. I wound up with a large sausage cheese pizza. I did not eat the whole thing. I could not eat the whole thing even if I wanted to. I got three slices in and started feeling full. When I was younger I could devour whole large pizzas by myself. As I got older that slowly started to change. My maximum pizza slice eating is usually nowadays five slices on a large, and six on a medium, and let us not talk about small sized pizzas.

I ate three slices last night and maybe around ten ounces of brownie. I really did not measure it. It was as big as my fist. I remember that much. I think my stomach shrunk some. The rest of the pizza is going to my work place for others to devour and finish. So, yes, it’s a minor set back, but are we not all entitled to one cheat meal at some point. One meal is not going to ruin everything. Just like one healthy meal is not going to fix everything.

So I am back on the horse today. So to speak… ^^

Is weight loss surgery the best thing?

I have talked to many people and friends that have gotten weight loss surgery done. Most of my friends have gotten the sleeve done and I know my aunt an uncle years ago back in the late 80’s or early 90’s (I can not remember) got their stomachs stapled through surgery, lost the weight (mostly) and then gained it back. If I am going to decide to do this I do not want to shell out a 4,000 dollar co-pay from my insurance just for it not to work.

Now what I am about to write about does not apply to people who truly do need the surgery and cannot do it on their own. For example if people have a thyroid problem then yes it is a lot harder to lose weight and in some cases with those problems makes them gain weight. I am sure there are other physical challenges and reasons why, for some people, surgery maybe their only option.

For the rest of us, and yes I do mean us with me included need to get up off our butts and stop being lazy. Surgery is not a crutch of a fix, a quick fix, nor a fix all to patch up laziness which could simply be fixed by changing your diet. I pushed myself to go to the gym twice this week after work. Monday and yesterday I went and did my cardio on Monday and walked on the treadmill on Tuesday. But, I have been working hard for the past two weeks or so. I have lost ten pounds. My family and friends keep telling me that surgery will be the best thing for me, will be a good idea, and the famous “you SHOULD do it” reason! It’s now becoming like a cult/bandwagon thing and I do not know what scares me more is that so many people need/do it or that it looks like a fad/cult culture thing. Not only that, but there is a high rate of people gaining their weight back and/or have many complications. Every body’s body is different, but why put yourself through that and waste time, money, and energy? Plus when you lose weight that fast you’re going to have a lot of hanging loose skin. If you go to the gym and tone up with weights you will still have sagging skin, but not as bad. Then you will have to pay for surgery to get that removed and tucked in. If you tell your insurance it’s not for cosmetic reasons and trust me if you got weight loss surgery at 400 lbs. + there are tons of reasons why it is bad to leave it. Your skin could chaff, there could be bacteria getting in there, and all sorts of things. So that would be another high co-pay of whatever your insurance tells you once you’ve convinced them it is not cosmetic, but actual life saving loose skin removal. I just want to do a one time co-pay for loose skin removal not for both weight loss surgery and that.

I hate doctors and the thought of my stomach being cut into and drastically doing a force change in my life does not sound appealing. My doctor when I spoke with him said I would be perfect candidate. I am all for changing my diet and making smarter choices, but when I was speaking with one of my friends who had gotten the surgery and she lost almost 100 pounds with her surgery (she did the sleeve too) and told me she now cannot eat very much, but she cannot drink any liquids a half an hour before she eats and she has to wait a half an hour after she eats. That is not normal to me. Doctors and health professionals tell you to drink a glass of water before meals so that you’ll fill up more and become full faster. There are other things that do not agree with me that you have to do after surgery. I know I can do this on my own if I stop being lazy and take control of my life. No more stop and go diet and exercise routines because this should be a change of life for me. This should be my new lifestyle and change is apart of life.

 

Then this happened…

I saw my doctor after work yesterday and turns out my A1C (not AC1…apparently I am slightly dyslexic when I can’t sleep) actually did drop down! Not by much, but it’s better than the last three blood work appointments. The nurse was wrong and it was not 8.2 anymore, but 8.1! Finally! Like I said I’ll take what I can get right now and now at least all my hard work is finally starting to pay off. I also noticed while I go to the gym whether sporadically or on point like I am suppose to I’ve been getting my protein from eggs which keeps me from having the munchies and being hungry. One of my friends pointed out when one time last year when I started going to the gym again after not going that I couldn’t understand why I was so hungry. She explained I needed more protein and that would curb the hungry/munchies. I can’t always get my hands on chicken let alone fish because fish is more expensive. So eggs is the next best thing to get my hands on for protein. I realize other foods have protein too, but I love eggs better even though it’s not one of my favorite foods. Eggs are just the easiest thing for me to cook in the morning before work.

That’s where we are right now. I’ll keep everyone posted and it turns out this summer I did lose a total of ten pounds. I hope to keep this up and lower my blood sugar further. It’s a start….